180 DAY CHALLENGE: EXTREME MODE

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138/180. The perception of time is really different: in other challenges it feels like the time is flying but in this challenge it’s somewhat slower. I’m pretty sure it has to do with my mental view of this challenge: I live in the future where I have already reached my goal whereas in the other challenges I live in the now.

This is the time when self-discipline is your best friend.

 

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Hi newtry, sorry for a late reply, had some obligations I had to take care of.

I would be very happy to get some company here! My number of conversations in this challenge have been next to zero... Not many people attending this one apparently. The reason why I'm doing this challenge (I'm doing the 365-day challenge and 10%-challenge concurrently) is because I have a modified set of rules: In my other challenges, my goal is just no porn. However, I noticed that some activities of M recalled memories from P so I decided to start this challenge with a modified set of rules: No fantasies whatsoever when I'm awake, no M, no dreaming about porn and no NE. So every day when I wake up I question myself "have I dreamed about porn this night?" and if the answer is yes, well, that's a reset. The thing I want to achieve with this is pure and total control of all the 24 hours of the day and it's actually working very well.

I have dreamed about porn a few times (long time ago now) and what I did was rejecting it as soon as it showed up in the dream. Quite satisfying to not give in to porn even in dreams!

That said, my aim with this challenge is to disconnect M and P completely from each other because I do believe one could enjoy M while not getting infected by P. P is the real evil!

I don't remember exactly but I think I've been doing three resets in this challenge since I started, all three of them because I dreamed about porn.

So that's my story, in case you were interested

I'm looking forward to have some company here the last month.

 

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Nocturnal Emission

My days here on nofap has been a great journey. Porn got introduced in my life in an early stage (10 yo) and kept me hooked for 25 years. After these 520 days, I can safely say NoFap has been the best journey I have ever done in my life. So many good things has happened afterwards and my amount of self-discipline is just increasing. First, I had to do a challenge here on the forum to commit myself to something new, may it be cold showers, plank challenge, sleeping habits and whatnot. Then I started to have a Trello list (e.g. a list of digital post-it notes on my phone) for self-discipline. On this list, I just had to write something up and then I followed it strictly until the end (expiry dates on all notes). Now, the last few days back, I'm starting to form my next level of self-discipline: thoughts. I'm practising the power of mere thoughts... if I think about something, I can just make a mental decision that I will do something and then I will stick to that with 100% certainty. So I have just started doing this, it's under development.

That said, I can warmly recommend staying on track - it will be the best single thing you will have done in your whole life!

 

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Tonight I had special dream. I dreamed that I was downloading a porn torrent and started to play it. In the beginning, it was only some regular text so no explicit pictures came into my mind. Then I thought ”this is against all that I have faught for a very long time” so I stopped it and deleted it.

I’m a bit annoyed that I both downloaded and started to play the movie the first few seconds but on the other hand, I stopped before I saw any explicit content so I will count this as a victory anyway - my guard was still there, protecting me to see anything.

 

Hi. I joined this challenge again yesterday, just forgot to post it. Day 1 completed! 179 more to go!

 

Daily check-in; day 3.

 

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