180 DAYS SEMEN RETENTION CHALLENGE for those who are determined to truly recover and live 100% otp

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Report of the day 5
1)Pray God-done
2)Stay accountable daily-done
3)Study about reboot-done
4)Take cold shower daily - done
5)Guard your eyes from nudity and indecent views-done
6)Work on your talents- done
7)Work on your career- not done
8)Engage in physical activities-done (12 k steps walk)
9)Eat moderately and healthy-not done(had doughnuts for lunch again and a bit more than necessary in the evening, although much better than yesterday)
10)Go to bed early and wake up early- done (21.30 till 4.33)
11)Do not use alcohol,drugs or any intoxicants-done
12)AEFF- done(guilty of procrastination and eating more than necessary, it looks like for the last 30 days Gluttony and Greed beating me like Lust did it before,but I keep no illusions all these states are interconnected and earlier or later I would have to deal with them. A bit like a gang of 7-you've beaten one of them and now the other 6 come to have a revenge on you.Felt Pride and Wrath through the day too-I don't have low self -esteem and when someone was about to cross my path I didn't let them and felt anger in my soul, some sort of readiness to smash them if something would play out differently.I didn't do much physically but in my mind and heart I'm guilty of

Spoiler: killing and harm

This is from 'Autobiography of Yogin' by Paramahamsa Yogananda:
Staying with his guru also meant learning to deal with the mosquitoes. Once when he was listening to a discourse from his guru, a rude little mosquito began to disturb Mukunda. When the mosquito sat on his thighs he instinctively raised his hands to strike it. A thought then entered his mind that he should stick to the principle of ahimsa or non-violence and spare the mosquito. He hesitated and Sri Yukteswar watched this. “Why don’t you finish the job?” He asked Mukunda.

“Are you advocating that I take a life?” Mukunda inquired surprised at his guru’s words.

“No, I am not,” replied Sri Yukteswar. “But in your mind you have already done the deed of killing the mosquito. Killing the mosquito or sparing it now does not make that much of a difference.”

“I do not understand,” Mukunda responded.

“The principal of ahimsa, is more to do with the removal of the desire to kill,” Sri Yukteswar replied. “The world is inconveniently arranged for a literal practice of ahimsa. Man may be compelled to exterminate harmful creatures. But he is not under any compulsion to feel anger or animosity towards them.”

(looks like the motive was they were s******s,trying to step on my rights...some sort of phenomena where whatever i meet outside getting multiplied in me and goes out...same for politeness and kindness same for arrogance and aggression)
13)Keep track and perform the necessary daily tasks/activities that are due -not done(felt sleepy, lethargic and unwilling to do serious tasks...)
14)Meditate- done
15)Declutter- done
16)Clean your environment - not done(have yet to figure out why, have a guess that it somehow has to do with #9 and it starts after breakfast I noticed that some 20-30 minutes after breakfast I feel tired and sleepy)

 

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Report of the day 6
1)Pray God-done
2)Stay accountable daily-done
3)Study about reboot-done
4)Take cold shower daily - not done
5)Guard your eyes from nudity and indecent views-done
6)Work on your talents- done
7)Work on your career- not done
8)Engage in physical activities-done (long walk)
9)Eat moderately and healthy-not done(was good through the day but in the evening I had too many roasted peanuts)
10)Go to bed early and wake up early- done (21.49 till 5)
11)Do not use alcohol,drugs or any intoxicants-done
12)AEFF- done
13)Keep track and perform the necessary daily tasks/activities that are due -not done
14)Meditate- done
15)Declutter- done
16)Clean your environment - not done

 

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Report of the day 7
1)Pray God-done
2)Stay accountable daily-done
3)Study about reboot-done
4)Take cold shower daily - not done
5)Guard your eyes from nudity and indecent views-done
6)Work on your talents- done
7)Work on your career- not done
8)Engage in physical activities-done( had a good run today )
9)Eat moderately and healthy- done
10)Go to bed early and wake up early- done (21.30 till 5.30)
11)Do not use alcohol,drugs or any intoxicants-done
12)AEFF- done
13)Keep track and perform the necessary daily tasks/activities that are due -not done
14)Meditate- done (done it in the evening after day's long spring cleaning session when my brained felt dosed, so that the quality wasn't the best)
15)Declutter- done(big time)
16)Clean your environment - done

 

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Report of the day 0( had wet dream at 4:30 am and my mind was quite shaky through the day with 'morning woods' pursuing me trough the first half of the day. Had 2 long cold showers. Can tell for sure that WD weakens control over your eyes direction in two ways:
* Somehow you feel dirty when this thing happens and don't want to look into other people eyes,and 2nd
* Your eyes tend to stick on the women forms when walking down the street more frequently, with more conscious effort required to make yourself looking into other direction.
1)Pray God-done
2)Stay accountable daily-done
3)Study about reboot-done
4)Take cold shower daily - done x2
5)Guard your eyes from nudity and indecent views-done the best I could and now I know how to improve on it
6)Work on your talents- done
7)Work on your career- not done
8)Engage in physical activities-done
9)Eat moderately and healthy- done
10)Go to bed early and wake up early- done (22.15 till 4.35)
11)Do not use alcohol,drugs or any intoxicants-done
12)AEFF- done( greed and attachments are still strong in me, didn't see them that clearly before)
13)Keep track and perform the necessary daily tasks/activities that are due -not done
14)Meditate- done (felt like I was about to fall of the chair due to sleepiness-at 6am)
15)Declutter- done
16)Clean your environment - done

 

Checking in !
Report of the day 1
1)Pray God-done
2)Stay accountable daily-done
3)Study about reboot-done
4)Take cold shower daily - done
5)Guard your eyes from nudity and indecent views-done
6)Work on your talents- done
7)Work on your career- done
8)Engage in physical activities-done
9)Eat moderately and healthy- done
10)Go to bed early and wake up early- done
11)Do not use alcohol,drugs or any intoxicants-done
12)AEFF- done
13)Keep track and perform the necessary daily tasks/activities that are due - done
14)Meditate- done
15)Declutter- done
16)Clean your environment - done

 

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Report of the day 2
1)Pray God-done
2)Stay accountable daily-done
3)Study about reboot-done
4)Take cold shower daily - done
5)Guard your eyes from nudity and indecent views-done
6)Work on your talents- done
7)Work on your career- done(but not as much as I wanted)
8)Engage in physical activities-done
9)Eat moderately and healthy- done
10)Go to bed early and wake up early- done
11)Do not use alcohol,drugs or any intoxicants-done
12)AEFF- done
13)Keep track and perform the necessary daily tasks/activities that are due - done
14)Meditate- done
15)Declutter- done
16)Clean your environment - done

 

Checking in !
Report of the day
1)Pray God-done
2)Stay accountable daily-done
3)Study about reboot-done
4)Take cold shower daily - not done
5)Guard your eyes from nudity and indecent views-done
6)Work on your talents- done
7)Work on your career- not done
8)Engage in physical activities-done
9)Eat moderately and healthy- done
10)Go to bed early and wake up early- not done(23-6)
11)Do not use alcohol,drugs or any intoxicants-done
12)AEFF- done
13)Keep track and perform the necessary daily tasks/activities that are due -not done
14)Meditate- done
15)Declutter- done
16)Clean your environment - done

 

Checking in !
Report of the day 4
1)Pray God-done
2)Stay accountable daily-done
3)Study about reboot-done
4)Take cold shower daily - done
5)Guard your eyes from nudity and indecent views-done
6)Work on your talents- done
7)Work on your career- not done
8)Engage in physical activities-done
9)Eat moderately and healthy- done
10)Go to bed early and wake up early- done(21.30-6)
11)Do not use alcohol,drugs or any intoxicants-done
12)AEFF- done
13)Keep track and perform the necessary daily tasks/activities that are due -not done
14)Meditate- done
15)Declutter- done
16)Clean your environment - done

 

Relapsed to PMO today.Sorry lads.Day 0.
Circumstances are as follows: first had a wet dream, after had very long morning wood and mind was going and coming to the genitals, later started enjoying experiencing of arousal...ended up with watching porn and masturbating-ejaculating.
What I learned:Never underestimate Lust as an enemy for our ability to handle fire are very limited by exposing yourself to triggers we are surely to fall and burn, as did I..and staying in the sexually aroused state with morning wood is the trigger if we don't extinguish it soon we will start enjoyng it and it will take hold of you.
What I gonna implement to prevent it happening in the future- I will never let my guard down by relaxing and underestimating Lust's powerful triggers and I stop being lazy when it comes to do something to extinguish trigger or preventing it altogether.
There is something stupid in us which welcomes risk an you think I do that and maybe I will be alright but when it comes to Lust you are most likely to get shot and poisoned by Lusts fire and fall- don't think this way.