19 Year Old NO NUT NOVEMBER 2019 [SEMEN RETENTION]

Today I'll not fall

 

Best of luck hermano

 

Yesterday was kinda hard for me :/ didn't relapse or anything either.

But i did get one of the weirdest Wet Dreamz (j cole : P) I've ever had and I ended up waking like right at the end. Never happened b4, its just odd

 

It's possible that your brain "want" to make you "let it all out" so you have wet dream. It's just a suposition. We know that our brain is f*cked up with at we already did so he think a way that is not really natural and think it is...

 

I think that my brain wants me to relapse, however I prefer to look at wet dreams as like a cheat meal, u know? Like its something in the middle to make the challenge a lil easier on me

 

I think you're right but be careful. One time I remember I go on porn sites when my mind was "clear" and I was really disgusted by what I see. And even when I'm not "clear" I know that what we see on porn site are totally unreal (the worst is when it looks like real => it had give me the chaser effect without having sex because I was like "Oh this is possible so why I haven't make it already with my gf ??" you see...).
Well all that to say that one time I saw porn but not by addiction effect, it was voluntary, without pulsion behind. It was the real me, I was making a "mental examination" with the bad one like "are you f*cking with me, you make me see this s**t". But then... some days after I've fail. To make another analogy I think that day I haven't take a cheatmeal but I lick it... worst than eat a cheatmeal. It's what make me fail days after I think.

 

Ya i learned I should never peek cuz it just makes it sooo much harder and I also end up relapsing as well. I tried that crap, the thing where the normal, non addict goes onto porn like wtf is this. Heck I tried to stop making it a weakness by looking at so much that I hated it (kinda like Roshi lol) but it didn't really work... i dont think so at least

 

I also decided to go pussy free. So it's no orgasm 2019 for me.

 

I have enough of myself... I've fail again, don't tell me again come on because... I knew approximately what I was doing, explanation : I was installing a web extension to restrain my usage of some sites like YouTube, and then I think about a list I've got that regroup all the damn porn sites I could find in years. So I put this list on category "block this sites forever" but when I saw some names...
And when I say that I was knew what I was doing, I mean that I didn't wanted to see really bad thing, "just" something really short and "soft" but is a fail anyway.
Seriously I want to stop porn this year. I'm gonna restart by something short : at least at the end of january, it gonna make 7 days without porn.

 

Never peek hermano, fight the urge

 

DAY number 6 ! I have this urge to masturbate, but I'm still fighting this. In my opinion, day number 6 is the worst. All the time when I'm trying to give up M it's the biggest fight for me at day 6. Keep fingers crossed! I'm going to do some Math to forget @YoungPiccolo and @niceguy97 good streak! Keep it up

 

Thanks brutha <3
keep fighting, it should get better after day 7. Up until this time my highest streak was 6 days, so anything could happen!