1st time on here

Discussion in 'New to NoFap' started by GirthyGuy, Aug 24, 2018.

  1. GirthyGuy

    GirthyGuy Fapstronaut

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    I will start from the bottom, I first started watch porn at age 12 or 13 and have done that for 8 years(now 21) is started off as normal sex and got worse over time. The stuff I am into currently is girls masturbating and have watched shemale porn around 10 times..

    I don't like to keep count but I haven't fapped or watch porn in 15-20 days. I can't help but think that this shemale fetish is only because normal porn wasn't doing it for me anymore. Im straight I have a girlfriend for 2 years who I want to marry and have kids with, she has no idea about this. I'm not gay I have liked girls all my life and never men. Im just really scared right now. Btw im 21 and I haven't had any benefits from nofap so far, I just need someone to help me please im really depressed amd pushing my girlfriend away. Thanks
     
  2. Welcome to the forum.
    What you described is very common. Your brain is trying to find the next more extreme thing to feed it's addiction. Much like a drug user seeking out the better high.
    It's great to hear you recognize this problem and want to fix it. If you want to marry this woman and have children I would urge you to open up to her about this. You love her and don't want to hurt her. For a relationship to last and grow it needs to be open, honest and truth. I say this from the heart as a husband who did not. Lies and loss of trust is deadly to relationships.
    Read many threads here about this very subject.
    You can do this brother.
     
  3. Dont blame yourself so much, man. It's absolutely normal feel curiosity for other areas. The problem is the porn is addictive and deteriore your male energy for do other things.
     
  4. GirthyGuy

    GirthyGuy Fapstronaut

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    Thanks brother that means a lot, this shemale shit is really messing with my head. I have been thinking about suicide for weeks(not just because of this) i just can't see this fetish going away...
     
  5. GirthyGuy

    GirthyGuy Fapstronaut

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    Thanks brother, I feel really lost right now. By accident I clicked on shemale porn and since then I liked it. Bro its confusing because I don't like men. Porn is crazy it can seriously destroy someones life
     
  6. It does fade away. I went through very similar things, maybe even more "strange" and it feels like it was just a bad dream growing more dim.
    No one's situation is exactly the same but in our case our relationship has grown much stronger and we are far more close in everything now. I feel alive again.
     
  7. GirthyGuy

    GirthyGuy Fapstronaut

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    Im glad you are better! All I want to do is watch some shemale porn right now
     
  8. Fight the urge, read and talk with us here. Or get out away from being alone with a screen. Make it through this day.
     
  9. GirthyGuy

    GirthyGuy Fapstronaut

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    Im trying to hard I just need to speak to people that understands me
     
  10. Semaphore

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    Listen we have all done things we regret that's mostly why were here - dont beat yourself up.
    Remember too, urges are temporary - two days on i read you post and wonder if you now see it that way now and can deal with the next urges better as a result?
    Stay strong
     
  11. GirthyGuy

    GirthyGuy Fapstronaut

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    Thanks a lot man, I relapsed then binged :( suppose all I can do is start again tomorrow and learn from my mistakes! I was feeling good but im learning!
     

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