I've made it 2 days now. I was just contacted by a girl online I used to pay for videos and shit. Man, I had a swarm of terrible feelings come rushing in. I was so tempted to write her back but I think it's best to ignore it. Feeling determined to change my life around and to stop being an addict. I've been sober from alcohol for 2 years, weed for 6 months and cigarettes for a year... so I try to tell myself if I can beat those addictions I can do this. I am an addict through and through I accept that. I don't know why this seems so much harder to kick. I guess it's because we have this built into us....like having a cigarette attached to your face and trying not to smoke it. I went to the clinic about my STD today. I thought it was HPV but turns out it's actually a virus that will go away, although it takes from 6 months to a year to clear. I guess that gives me a reason to abstain from sex for that long. I don't want to spread this to others. I hope I can stay strong, you guys all inspire me to keep going. Just wanted to give you all an update in case my story helps anyone at all.