2 weeks & feeling the effects (Sharing thoughts)

Hi guys,

I'm just another guy(26 years old) like you all, trying to figure out a way out of porn and masturbation addiction which I believe will help me to have a better control over my life, laser sharped focus and get into some real relationships. Its been 2 weeks now and I think about sex every 5 min. I was almost on the verge of relapsing today when I opened hamster and the page asked me to agree to the legal norms prevalent in my country before proceeding to the main website (so I had not seen the first page yet ). I was sitting there thinking with an erection as powerful as ever whether this is it and I'm gonna go back to being the same old Johnny who finds reasons such as 'Its fine man, I gotta masturbate and release the stress. It's really important because of bla bla bla... And then instantly a thought crossed my mind: 'What if I don't?' For starters, definitely I would not have been writing this if I hadn't stopped. It was my choice and I made it that I won't do it. The after feeling of masturbation needs to be re-lived before the actual act to stop oneself from the pain all over again. All those emotions of distress and disappointment were felt before the act. Feels bad and a feeling that so much time was lost all those years. On the positive side, I can stop many more years to pile on the existing. The triggers to masturbate to porn still exist but now I am responding to those triggers in a different way. Looking for solutions to my problems by being futuristic and finding them in books which I always wanted to read.

What I hope to achieve from this?
I hope that after a month or so of abstaining from this habit & avoiding this vicious cycle, I will be much more clearer and a fearless human being who doesn't get nervous or is afraid because of petty events in life. The freedom to think clearly and without any fear is a gift to the humans, one which can be utilised to do so many awesome things or even to just chill. Knowledge is power and wisdom is what follows it. To think beyond the regular is what is exciting. Time is limited. For my body & mind, masturbation and porn are really big issues and which need to be dealt with asap. Once I handle them I feel it will be able to start sorting out other matters in life. Sorting oneself needs to start somewhere and this for me is a good place to begin with.


Thank you everyone for reading till the end. I will be sharing my experience, thoughts and my progress with you all as I continue on this fascinating journey. To be continued.

Cheers to NoFap!