I started viewing pornography at the early age of 12, it was the age that our family had bought a computer for the house, very slow dial-up internet, but everything was out there, no age restricted blocks on the internet, it was all available, and i searched for most of it, pictures, videos, downloading whole movies from torrents (this used to take 10+ hours, sometimes a whole day to finish) but even more exciting when it had completed. All throughout my teens i was spending hours a day viewing these videos and images, and was edging from the age of 15/16 when broadband and the ability to surf and download quickly through the internet was available. I was a shy teenager, and never had any luck with girls at school or college, even though i had some interest during these times from various girls, i never pursued it and remained a virgin until 20 due to my lack of confidence in myself and insecurities about my physique. I eventually lost it to my first girlfriend, It ended up becoming a long-term relationship all throughout my 20's which ended after 7-8 years due to my absence with work and other complications. After the split, and taking a month to recover from the breakup, i decided to sign up on dating apps as my friends suggested i should do to move on and get over the situation, Tinder, POF etc etc, During this time i was travelling across the world with work, and was changing countries every week or so, i started engaging in these dating apps to meet new people, and to experience one night stands (which i had never done, i only had sex with one person, and that was my ex) I found myself meeting at least 2-4 girls a week on average (either at bars spontaneously or through Tinder) and most of the time they were up for having sex on first meeting, which seemed crazy, but worked great for me as i was only in that city for a day or two, it became like a sport, and my week didn't feel complete if i hadn't had sex with a few strangers, its like i constantly needed this validation that girls were sexually attracted to me. It came to a point where i was sure it would be out of my system and that i would no longer need this endless chain of fuck sessions, because may i add, they weren't always full of joy, 80 percent of the time i couldn't even finish due to my sensitivity being killed by my brain on porn, i could go for a long time, but never reach O. When covid happened this all ended, i could no longer travel with my job and no longer sleep with all these different women, and for that i am thankful, because i have had so much time to reflect on myself, my porn addiction, my sex addiction, and why i constantly need it to boost my ego, or my dopamine. I'm currently on day 17 and feel so strong that i will NEVER return to my old ways of porn addiction and sex addiction, i'm happier, more focussed, and no longer feel like a slave to porn and sex, i have found someone that i feel is the person i want to have sex with for the rest of my life - so i want to thank this community and the helpful things i've read and the helpful people that don't judge and offer great advice. I would love to hear from people that have gone through a similar situation as this, and what they have taken from it and what they have learnt about themselves.