2019 is almost over, its time to move to the next phase. New objective: achieve asexuality. I just dont hav eit as a guy and tbh i feel really uncomfortable being straight. I hate lusting over women, i hate it, it just doesnt feel right. Its a perversion in my case. Im a 24 yo virgin, i have been doing nofap for more tha a year. I achived lots of great things in this time, im proud of myself. But i realized that getting laid is impossible and mreley liking women is just wrong at this point. I stopped lifting weight because it made me feel ucomfortable. I felt weird to have all thiese big muscles yet on the inside being a desperate little incel. I was sick of that. I invest my energy learning guitar, i already learnt bass and i moved to guitar in July. I hope i can do this. I know i wont get laid, its not God's fault, and its beyond my control but my sexuality can be and will be put under control. I dont care if i become a faggot in the process being macho while being an incel is a bad combination. Too much testosterone is bad in my case. I have pretty big testicles and lifting weights caused to swole even more.