[21-CHALLENGE] THE TWENTY ONE DAYS CHALLENGE !

2/21 done

 

I'm in.

 

Day 16

 

9/21

 

10/21. Whoever said this was going to be easy?

 

I think you misunderstood my concern. I am retreating even from small interaction with girls especially in the social media. Would that have side effects in the long run because as of now it it is extremely helping me get away from PMO

 

Day 1/21.
I will not watch pornography today because it is Jummah (Friday prayer)! I should study hard today, and have some time to relax and chill with friends before they go on their winter break!

 

On day 2. Feeling good.

I have found that I completely self sabotage. When there is a girl I like, or think I may have a chance, I ruin it completely with PMO. Almost like a defence mechanism. As in I think I will fail anyway, so pre empt it with PMO, which pretty much guarantees that I will fail. So so stupid. Maybe I am subconsciously trying to protect myself from getting hurt again. None of it makes sense.

 

Day 1 starting over again.

 

Day 13/21

 

Ohhh.. now i understand. I'ld say if its helping you get away from pmo. Please continue.
Sadly, i fell this morning. Ifunny enough i ddt feel guilty. I was rather laughing. Laughing at myself. Knowing it was me this time that caused it. No urges or craving or loneliness. Just me.
I was sceptical of spending my night alone. I did and had no urges or cravings. I even woke up in the middle of the night to do something productive and still had no urges. It was until i woke up around 4:15 and felt it was the best time to download some series. (Yh.. thats what i chose to do with my morning time). How stupid. Well i felt i could handle it since it was in the morning even though i'm remembering now that the last time i fapped was in the morning. Well, once i was done downloading, i couldnt sleep anymore. Thats were it started. The idleness, the boredom. What to do now that i'm awake and still in bed? And well thats what lead me to here. I have nothing to blame but nyself. We make choices moment by moment knowing full well what they can lead to. I made mine and it led me to pmo. Day0..
On the positive side.
February: Froger vs Pmo .. 14:1

 

Slipped yesterday so today is day 1.

 

I AM SO SAD to say it, but.....REBOOT! Today was gonna mark my longest streak ever on nofap, with 15 days, but I blew it. Literally. Ill bounce back though. To the rest of you, keep going strong.

 

4/21 done

 

7/21

 

7/21

 

Day 13/21

 

Day 0

 

Is it normal to be a bit more aggressive when doing a challange?. I feel that alot of things are angering me today.
Small computer glitches, work problems that usually are easy to fix e.t.c.
Anyone know if these are related?

 

Day 0