I literally just got into this tonight (this morning actually, it's 3:46am on May 6th as I write this). Haven't masturbated since May 4, 2017. I haven't watched porn since then, I have seen some dick pics on Grindr today and yesterday but I don't know if that counts as porn? I didn't jerk off to them or anything. They were just sent to me. Anyway, I think it would be easier to have a gay accountability partner because a gay person would have relevant experiences and advice to my situation and hopefully I could return the advice/experience. It would also be easier for me to open up to and confide in a gay person. I have masturbated almost every single day since the first time I masturbated in... I was probably in 6th grade. I'm 21, almost 22. I've missed only a handful of days which is more than made up for by the many many many days where I would masturbate multiple times, sometimes over and over all day. Probably 99% of the times I've masturbated I've also watched porn. Masturbation and porn, I believe, have royally fucked my sex life. I haven't had a boyfriend since 2013, I have had very few sexual experiences, practically all have been totally embarrassing and disappointing due to not feeling anything at all (it's literally like my penis is numb, the first time I had sex I didn't even know it was inside him), being unable to be in the moment, constantly losing my erection, and not really feeling any sexual drive or true attraction to my partners. Its so hard for me to go without masturbating every day. My balls have ached all day and I just want to do it. Someone please help me.