21 yo, PIED, 2 months on NoFap, Cuckold, Gay thoughts, HOCD etc

Discussion in 'Porn-Induced Sexual Dysfunctions' started by MichaelDracula, Mar 29, 2018.

  1. Newlife157

    Newlife157 Fapstronaut

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    you've never passed that you fuck with your girlfriend but your penis is not 100%, as if it lacked hardness to your penis and more libido in your mind, or feel a not so hard erection? How soon did the erections of the morning return? please brother this situation is horrible
     
  2. MichaelDracula

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    I easily get 90-100% erection when I didn’t have sex for 1-2 days. After I go 1-2 rounds it’s usually harder to get 100% erection, and I usually need a bit more stimulation and concentration.
    MW were and still are inconsistent, but they are much better, and now when I am living full time with a girl I usually wake up hard or semi hard.
    When it comes to libido, at first I felt numb completely both physically and mentally. Now I would say that my libido is 50% in my mind (what I see - body etc) 50% physical (touch etc).
     
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  3. MichaelDracula

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    Ok, some new updates. Successfull sex in different positions. My libido is much stronger, I can go more and more rounds, I feel sexually excited even when we are just hugging, holding hands, or I am looking at her. The most important thing is - I really WANT to have sex. I am not afraid of it, and basically I am ready to go any time. Still feel that my full potential libido is not there, but it is close.
     
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  4. Great to hear. Keep up the good work.
     
  5. here4help

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    Hey bro - I am newer here- with very similar PMO history. Your open and honest posting history, as well as the many replies by others, is just the motivation and inspiration I needed...I read your entire post/thread history and progression toward your awesome success and just have to thank you for all of your posting about your journey and setbacks, progress and determination, and your recent arrival at such a tremendously and victorious restored sex life!

    You really helped me my friend...thank you! And high five!
     
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  6. MichaelDracula

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    I am glad I helped. I hope one day you will recover and motivate others!
     
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  7. MichaelDracula

    MichaelDracula Fapstronaut

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    My MWs improved and are much longer and stronger. I get very strong erections when my girl touches me. I feel very horny lately, desires are almost unbearable, despite me having sex regularly. Still not fully wired, but I am heading there on a skyrocket. Never thought that I will see this much improvement that fast. When you have the opportunity to rewire - go for it. Don’t wait, sexual function works exactly like Pavlov’s dog. You need to orgasm a couple of times around your girl in order for your brain to make connection girl = pleasure. Allow yourself to make mistakes, don’t get discouraged when something doesn’t work out. Relax, ask your girl to masturbate you. Ask your girl to perform oral if she is into that. If you can’t get it up, give it a time. I didn’t say to my girl that I had ED, my girl was just passionate enough to be with me. She helped me big time and doesn’t even know about that. It may not be the same with you, so think twice what exactly will you tell your woman, if she asks you something. Also, some advice - go with a simpler, less experienced girl. You will grow together both physically and mentally and gain a lot of experience. And, if you have the opportunity to live with girl - take it. Living together, sleeping etc. is also a huge thing.

    Some other observations, I realized, that I was also a victim to prone masturbation. I masturbated with limp penis and dick folded in half. This also had great effect on me because at first my dick was hard, but still soft at base, so it could bend. Now it’s hard and I can penetrate easier. Sometimes it’s not 100% but a couple of strokes makes it hard. When I started, I needed up to an hour in order for it to get hard.
     
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  8. MichaelDracula

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    Improvements are so great, not even funny. 0 desires to watch porn, or fetish fantasies. Erections are better, I can now switch positions in bed, without losing erection, even after 2-3 rounds. Giving your woman a pleasure is the best thing for your self-confidence that you can get. First time I entered her she had orgasm in 10 seconds, I had orgasm in 15 seconds (approximately). My stamina increased a lot since, sometimes she cums 3-4 times in my 1 round. I could last up to an hour. I also feel a lot more confident and relaxed during sex. My muscles are relaxed. The size of my erect penis has also improved, my girl pointed it out. I think it’s because of better erection quality. MW are consinstent. When I am just laying near my girl, I am always semi-hard.
     
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  9. nopenotdoinit!

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    Incredible man! It took me a very long time to realize this fact as well. That is incredible discovery and I am so happy that you know this fact. I am also really inspired by your openness and your ability to work extremely hard. I believe in you 100%!!
    One piece of personal advice: Don't try to completely turn off your sexual urges, just notice which one is the real you and which one is the "noise" from all the years of sissy, cuckhold, and other visual porn viewings throughout the years.

    Best of luck!
     
  10. MichaelDracula

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    I respect all of my desires, if they have to do something with women, parts of their bodies and something that feels natural. However, when I started rewiring I consciously gave myself a promise that until I wire 100% to vanilla sex, I won’t implement anything in my sexual life other than vanilla. No role plays, no sexy lingerie, no toys. The more I wire myself in vanilla direction, the less I feel that I even want anything else. It just feels so great and natural.
     
  11. MichaelDracula

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    Yesterday had my first 100% boner without touch. It just popped out of my trousers when I went down on girl. I didn’t have sex for a couple of days, and still could last considerable amount of time.
     
  12. Great to hear you are having some progress.
     
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  14. MichaelDracula

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    Consistent morning woods, consistent hard erections when going down on girl. Sometimes I am softer when I go second-third round immediately after the first one, but that’s rare and I think it’s normal even for non-masturbators. But I can still go that second round even being softer.
     
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  15. That's normal.
     
  16. ForABetterLife20

    ForABetterLife20 Fapstronaut

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    YEP. I'm going through the same thing right damn now. Not good.
     
  17. blueyedsyko495

    blueyedsyko495 New Fapstronaut

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    This also happened with my old girlfriend haha. Her name is Ashlee. She's really insecure becuase she's super skinny and thinks men like girls with a little more cushion for the pushin if ya know what I mean. But she was a total evil psychopath. She would sit on instagram calling other girls ugly and stuff. I should have been able to notice this early on becuase her father is a nut job too, tough guy to trust if you know what I mean. Very sketchy. But yea ashlee is just a skinny bimbo who is in love with herself all while talking about other people behind their backs. She's about the fakest person I have ever met and multiple members of my family think the same thing. She puts on a very fake act in front of my aunts and other family members but we all see right through it. I think she may have some repressed homosexual feelings becuase she always talks bad about others. Also I heard they say homosexual fathers give the homo gene to their daughters. Also, she used to insist on me taking her into strip clubs becuase she wanted to look at the naked women....AND she only wants to be with the one boy she has ever been with. She is obviously a lesbo with a LOT of hate in her heart. She's the type of person to lie and send fake text messages to others and lie to police officers trying to put prople in jail. Complete wack job with no concience. She is simply a spoiled bimbo who has a crazy father. I am going to run for the hills and never look back!!
     
  18. blueyedsyko495

    blueyedsyko495 New Fapstronaut

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    Basically put it this way. This molly R. girl. Total w****. Like bad bro. Like many different penises have entered her. And finished in her. And walks around like it's cute. And thinks some guy will get down on one knee and ask her to marry him? Sheesh. Guy is a complete fool.
     
  19. Why do you let these girls bother you and take up so much of your thoughts?
     
  20. blueyedsyko495

    blueyedsyko495 New Fapstronaut

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    Molly R
    Maggie P
    Ashlee Bimbo
    OR DAN
    or kevin
    Whoever the f ck. You're a f cking p ssy a s b tch and you wouldn't say it to my face becuase you're a p $$y a $ b tch. U finna get biiiiaattch
     

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