210+ days and then reset.

Possible trigger warning.

Pretty bummed, but I will say that I totally see how when you go so long, the changes are so subtle that you forget you had them, until you don’t. I was doing so good, so strong and not even thinking about resetting. Didn’t peak at anything, didn’t touch myself, not even much of a temptation. Last week we went on a family vacation to Florida, we stayed at a condo on the beach.

They were beautiful women everywhere in bikinis and skantally dressed. All day long, hundreds of women everywhere. I managed to stay strong and didn’t give into temptation to reset or MO. We were there for over a week. I was doing okay, until we got back home. The pictures were still in my head. I got tempted and looked up my past favorite p site and to my surprise I didn’t see anything that peaked my attention, I didn’t touch myself. I browsed and I deactivated my account again and was done.

A couple days later I was on reddit, I had no idea P was even on reddit. I was scrolling through my usual, clean, sub Reddit’s and I came across a guys profile and a comment he made on a image, I clicked on the comment and the picture. Unfortunately I found out the power of P on reddit. I had no idea it was so socially driven and right there, people posting stuff in a instant.

For a day or so I was looking at it and subbing to those sub Reddit’s. Last night I finally caved and MO’d. A couple hours later I felt so sick, meantally and physically. This morning I deactivated my reddit and put the filters back on my phone and home internet. If I stay strong I hope I can get back to it.

Over 200 days, I’m not starting over, it’s just a bump in the road. But the addiction is always there, no matter how many days, just waiting to resurface. It’s scary. Stay strong guys.

 

Thank you bother. Once you get past 90 or 100 or whatever days, it doesn’t even really matter to “count days”. All it really literally is a a number. There’s no set amount of days on a reboot for everyone.

The brain fog and fatigue today has been unreal. I remember feeling this way early on. Everything has been cloudy and I’ve been lazy all day. I’ve had little to no appetite either and felt kinda light headed and zombie like.

 

I’m going to be honest and say I’m a little disappointed with the support I have received, or not received, on this forum. There has been a few of you who have helped me out, I’m sure you know
Who you guys are, thank you for that

 

That is great for your husband. It’s no excuse for me to reset because of going to a pool. Also I don’t want to avoid it I have three small children, it was the first time they have seen the ocean. It was so much fun watching them play and have fun there.

Your right we can’t avoid triggers forever. But we need to get stronger and be able to say no and not let our minds wonder also. I said no sooo many times and then eventually it was just like I couldn’t say so and it’s no excuse, but almost that I wasn’t in the right state of mind or something.

On the plus side me and my wife have been having more sex lately, and we have had the best sex since I reset the other day, I have lasted a lot long we and we have had a lot more fun.

I went so long I was getting numb I think, I reset and it almost reset my motivation to continue to be PM free.

Congrats again for your husband. I hope he keeps it up.