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22 days without porn. Life has become hell

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by Anti Porn Warrior, Sep 14, 2017.

  1. Anti Porn Warrior

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    Hello guys, I am on day 22 without Porn. My current streak is becoming more and more difficult as the days are going by. I have been attacked with mountain-sized urges every second with the help of the images stored in my brain. I have been fighting them since a week. I am not able to concentrate at my newly joined office (dangerous for my career). I try to socialize as much as possible. That is a ceasefire period of course. But like everyone I can't do that 24x7. When I am back to myself, I am attacked again with a still more powerful weapon.

    I fear that I would either relapse or go crazy. Life has become a hell and relapse is becoming more and more tempting. I am getting tired and losing motivation. Please share your thoughts to keep me up and going.

    Some people who reached day 20 have posted here that they feel a lot of energy in themselves. But it's just the opposite with me. Would you guys tell me what good thing you did in addition to staying away from PMO, that filled you with that energy.
     
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  2. Flyhigh

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  3. Anti Porn Warrior

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    Yes trying .... But you know it is becoming as difficult as holding burning coal with bare hands.
     
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  4. Flyhigh

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    I feel you. I'm on day 16 today and I'm feeling the same.
     
  5. Flyhigh

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    What's your longest streak so far?
     
  6. Flyhigh

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    I was able to reach 42 days before so far that was the best and I want to stay longer if possible for as long as I can.
     
  7. Anti Porn Warrior

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    The best streak was 8 years ago. maybe 2-3 months when I had fallen deeply for a girl at college. The most recent one was 40 days but edging included. So it was not actually a streak.
     
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  8. Flyhigh

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    Then go longer than that.
     
  9. MarinoBigFan1984

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    You are in the worst part of the reboot. It should ease up in a few days. Think of it as a purge or detox.
     
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  10. Anti Porn Warrior

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    Yup working on it. But that time, I had a strong motivation. Now she's no longer in touch. And I'm not yet married.
     
  11. Flyhigh

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    Then find motivation there can be a lot to discover.
     
  12. Flyhigh

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    Just think of all the benefits nofap can give you if you just stay on track.
     
  13. Anti Porn Warrior

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    Hmm ... I wish it goes away now like light goes of when you switch it off. LOL ....

    I read a lot of things online but most tips and tricks are good to hear but practically very rarely work.
     
  14. Anti Porn Warrior

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    Thanks ... Good one.
     
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  15. Flyhigh

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    Yep I hope it will give you driven force to stay strong.
     
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  16. eadgbe

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    It's all in your head. If you continue telling yourself that you're weak,tired and without motivation, you will fail. Believe me, I know what you're going through but before you relapse, ask yourself - how will I feel the moment after I O ? If you think you're feeling low now, just think how terrible you'll feel after a relapse. Abstaining is a steep, upward climb but relapsing is a leap into the abyss.
     
  17. Got to Overcome

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    I know what you mean. I'm going through the same thing as I speak. I'm actually thinking to myself, "You know, I'm only on a seventeen day streak. What does it really matter if I relapse? I'll just start again tomorrow."

    But I'm not going to relapse. The reason is that I know where it will lead. I won't start again tomorrow. I'll probably binge for a full week or so, and stop only when I've gotten to the point where I feel utterly worthless and incapable of accomplishing even the smallest task.

    The unfortunate reality is that I've spent entirely too much of my life in that exact place, and I'm sick of it. So instead of relapsing, I'm going to get up and walk my dogs for an hour. They'll love the exercise, and it'll help to clear my mind and remind me of all the benefits that abstaining from PMO will bring. After returning home, I'm going to cook dinner and then spend the evening studying Mandarin. Once I've completed those tasks, I'll feel good about myself for having made the decision to complete tasks which may be more difficult but will bring a lasting sense of reward rather than taking easy options which lead not only to immediate gratification but also to long-term regret.

    So that's what I'm going to do, and I hope you'll also be able to commit to following the path of lasting rewards.
     
  18. seaguy44

    seaguy44 Moderator Assistant

    You can do it!!!!! If not, use the motivation for your future girlfriend. The benefits will be so worth this! Don't give up based on few seconds of dopamine pleasure
     
  19. Anti Porn Warrior

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    Someone had also suggested me a converse way. Noting down all the harm that PMO has caused and going through it when attacked with an urge.
     
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  20. seaguy44

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    That would be a good way. There are so many negative effects of PMO.

    Suffering from this addiction is a good example
     
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