22 getting back on track

Day8:

had sex on Wednesday, was really nice. Still strong considering PMO. I didn’t meet the guy on Grindr. I met him on tinder to months ago and he wrote me a message on instagram that he wants to meet.

continuing my journey. Hope you are doing good. I have to get back to daily journaling.

 

Day 0 now:
Monday the 18th is day nr 1.
I jacked off on FaceTime with my boyfriend on Saturday, and today I messed up and jacked of to porn 3 times. I will not back off anymore until I see him on the 9th of February.

 

Im 22 and I am starting a new streak. I had a pretty good year in a relationship and I was happy most of the time, but I broke up and now I want to get back on track with nofap.
goals are to get more aware of what I do, to control myself better, get a strong focus and kick bad habits.

Today the 3rd of december 2022 marks day 1.

first steps will be:

7 Days
14 days
30 days
60 days
90 days

what will I do to achieve this?
- deleted twitter
- soon will delete Instagram and Facebook
- go the the gym 6 times a week from wednesday on (i cant before because of medication)
- I wont drink alcohol until new years at least.
- I will stop smoking wednesday
- Journal everyday at least once
- no dating apps

I know I can do this, last year I had 87 days of streak and amazing benefits.

 

Day 1 went good, thoughts of jacking off a couple of times but it was easy to resist and I will go on!
Feeling like this will go great

 

Deleted instagram and Facebook. Sick of wasting my time there.

I know urges will come faster than I can see them coming, but I am aware that they only try to trick me.

I will charge my phone at my desk from tomorrow on. Not in bed anymore.

stop smoking on wednesday.

 

Day 2:

Gonna do this!!

already see that journaling and a real comittment works. the last weeks i also said i would quit in the evening and teh next day directly failed because sometimes I didnt even remeber taht yesterday i wanted to quit. But now I wrote down my goal and now i dont just follow urges. This makes it easier to say no, and i think urges dont last long. Urges will come though, I need to be careful about days 5-8 especially.

Also wednesday will be day 5, whe i will quit smoking. This might also try to trick me but i will be strong.

But, I think my highest goal right now is actually quitting cigarettes because it gives me so many benefits in a short time (from experience when i quit for 10 days). So if I catch myself going to the vendiong machine to buy cigarettes, I will rather jack off. BUt I am optimistic that I can stand the pressure this time, and enjoy all benefits of quitting both addictions at the same time.
2023 will be my year, and I will make myself go into the new year with a head start not starting at 0 on the first of january.

I am really motivated and I know that this is the way to go for me. Neither porn will be part of my life again and from wednesday on nor will cigarettes be part of my life ever again.

 

Going to bed now, day 2 was easy.

happy to be back on this journey again!

 

We can all Master to beat this addiction.
Set your goals and make yourself proud!

Journal everyday so that this doesn’t happen again (forgetting about wanting to quit)

a commitment on a real peace of paper also helps I think.

to fight urges I sometimes tell myself that it’s just the little addiction monster that tries to trick me back into addiction. But the more urges we fight, the weaker this little monster gets!

I wish you the best mate.

 

Day 3:
Woke up early but felt very energetic. Did a task for studying and took a walk in nature before lectures started. Feeling good today and mentally also in a much better state just because I know that I’m doing the right thing right now which will make me happy in the long run. I hope I can keep this mindset up when I quit nicotine too. But I think I should. In November I made it to 8 days, then to 10 days and this time I’m going to make it a lifetime!

 

Still day 3,

had some lectures and didn’t feel horny 99% of the day. Didn’t make any dumb decisions, didn’t use instagram or Facebook and feeling quite good. But sometimes it feels like my mood drops towards the evening around 5 pm when it gets dark I don’t know I guess that’s just a winter thing.

looking forward to hitting the gym again and gaining some weight. Today in the morning I had 82.2 kg. When I didn’t smoke for 10 days which was about 1,5 weeks ago, I had my highest weight of 83,4kg. I’m aiming towards 87kg or maybe more if possible.
But I will only achieve this weight if I stop smoking. I really want to achieve this but it seems like currently I don’t really want to stop smoking. The thing is of course I could and should stop anyways but I have made bad experiences quitting at a time when I „enjoyed“ smoking. Because then I have a good memory of smoking and this leads to longing.
So I think I will stop at a time when I really feel like I hate cigarettes.

 

Day 4 morning:

I’ve slept for more than 10 hours, because I hit snooze 20 times. I will buy a classic alarm clock soon. 10 hours is just to much and that’s how I feel right now.

but I’m strongly committed consindering nofap.

not exactly sure when I will quit smoking but I’m really looking forward to it. if I quit on Wednesday, then Friday will be really hard because me of two hard days combined.

 

I will have a look and might join, thanks mate.

 

yes bro I can only agree to your statements! We can and will do this

 

Day 5:

yesterday I broke a rule. I drank alcohol with friends, not binge drinking but also not only 2 beers. I was just not strong enough to say no I’m just gonna drink a coke instead of beer. I need to be careful today because alcohol was often the cause of earlier relapses I had. but I won’t peek or relapse I will be strong.

From today on I can finally go to the gym again, that’s very important for me but also testosterone will probably spike and make me very horny. Today I will quit smoking in the afternoon. 16.30 I will smoke the last cigarette. I will free myself from this shit which is the worst thing I am doing to myself.

next week on Sunday I will break my record of 10 days and this time I will be successful and not smoke again.

about alcohol again, I won’t drink alcohol in December. First event that I might drink again will be New Year’s Eve.

I will succeed!!

 

I failed, I will analyze how it came to this tomorrow and make a new strategy.