Dude if it helps. I'm 43. I left my wife of 14 years after finding out she was having an affair. I'm now back living with my mum who is an absolute nutcase. I don't really have any mates anymore which can happen if your too involved in a relationship. It doesn't get any shittier than this. Your young, going through a tough patch, maybe a bit lost in life but you have a good opportunity to turn things around. The peeps on this forum are priceless. The amount of support and love on here is amazing. Take all the advice here and use it as the foundation for a potentially fantastic new chapter in your life. Remember, when your on top of your game finally, there will always be others that will need your help and support. You'll have the skills and experience to help them as well. We believe in you bro. You just need to now make the first few small steps towards that life you've always dreamed of.