I don't know why but this past weeks this has been in the back of my mind at all times, I've been trying to change a lot of stuff in my life and maybe as a repercussion of that this constant thought has appeared. For once, I've started working out like crazy doing full blown workouts 6 days per week, im trying to overcome my porn addiction (5 days porn free), ive tried to change my mentality to being more positive and more confident as a result of my constant workouts, which i seem to be having a lot of fun with. I was never someone who drank a lot of water but after reading the benefits I've been hydrating myself properly drinking 2.5liters per days and it has improved my mood drastically. However, all of this may have brought up this embarassement or constant thought about never in my life having had a girlfriend or kissed a woman. I was rejected twice when i was younger, I was too naive and put a lot of time and effort into it so I decided I wouldnt pursue any longer and started focusing on other things. But as of late this has been everyday in my mind for some reason. I don't think my appearance was what turned down women when i was younger, probably my socials skills as normally i was either too nervous, needy or anxious when speaking to women, therefore the reason i wanted to build confidence. If there is anyone that is going through the same or in a identical place, I would like to hear your thoughts on how to cope with it.