I have been addicted to porn and masturbating most of my life. It started at 14, and continued all the way through this morning. I'm married with kids, and I just want to be done with this. I've never been able to openly express this struggle with anyone because of fear of judgment or actually being judged by others. I feel the addiction getting worse and progressing. Wanting more and more. It's time to stop. I don't know how to let go of this. Just writing the admission of the addiction brings a little peace to my soul. I imagine a life of freedom from this. Social anxiety being gone. Knowing I don't have this secret. Not having to make sure there's no stains on my underwear so my wife doesn't notice. So many terrible, disgusting things gone. It would be nice. I hope this community is the real deal. I don't want to fail anymore. It starts now, I guess.