230 days no porn

Discussion in 'Success Stories' started by Camanche1985, Mar 8, 2019.

  1. Camanche1985

    Camanche1985 Fapstronaut

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    I was edging the other day. First time in over 200 days. I was on reddit and I was curious what they had. I went to a lingerie page. I saw about 15 photos. I didn't see any private parts and I didn't release. Wasn't there long so I feel I'm still going.
    Honestly I feel a little lost, but I am happy with how far I have come. The subconscious is very powerful and me knowing in the back of my mind that I am not using pornography is invaluable to me. I know that it has helped me immensely.
    I am 33 and have been using porn since I was 14. I thought it was an OK thing to do. Now I know different.
    This has not been all peachy. I still struggle somewhat with being social. But the added confidence and esteem I get from not looking at porn is worth it.
    The reason I don't do retention is because I wanted to learn more about myself through what I think about while masturbating. I'm christian so I don't even know if it is righteous to masturbate but I feel like it would really one plastered all over the Bible if masturbation was wicked.
    I had read books about the game and stuff like that and approached hundreds of women a few years ago but I have stopped a lot of that now. I only really go after a girl if I am burning with passion.
    I think I have a low sexual IQ so this has been even more difficult.
    I'll just put it out there that I have mental illness and receive disability for it.
    I had a job for quite a while but I just quit. I want to go back to school and get a better job.
    Of course I have more time now that I don't use porn. That has increased my productivity. I also think outside the box more I must say. My sense of humor has increased so much. I really think that is the best thing from this. My sense of humor is just off the charts. People at work said I was funny.
    I'll post back a bit later. I wish I could say I was bringing in girl after girl but that just hasn't been the case with me. It's more of a self sufficiency thing.
    I feel like something big is gonna happen, like I'm gonna get a girlfriend but it never happens. Maybe it never will.
    But deep down, I know this is right, and I know this is the right journey.
     
  2. freeit

    freeit Fapstronaut

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    Hey Camanche1985..
    Don't worry about those lingerie pics. You're perfectly fine. But try not to repeat it, as this may trigger PMO.
    And 230 days is really a great achievement. So try to maximize your streak. Try to stay away from PMO triggers.
    Your effort will definitely result as a good outcome.
    Good to hear that your humor has increased so much ;) Wishing you all the best to find the perfect girl for you.
    Please stay active and keep motivating everyone. We're here to motivate you anytime.
    Yaay!!!
    Enjoy non PMO life!!
     
  3. Blonderman

    Blonderman Fapstronaut

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  4. Camanche1985

    Camanche1985 Fapstronaut

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    thank you
     
  5. Camanche1985

    Camanche1985 Fapstronaut

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    thanks dude. every day brings a new little something good.
     
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  6. control your life

    control your life Moderator Assistant Staff Member Moderator Assistant

    congrats on 230 days ,stay strong!
     
  7. HelplessPleaseHelp?

    HelplessPleaseHelp? Fapstronaut

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    Great job man. I can see in your counter that you are still going. There you go.
    I also hang on well with the non-porn life and it is wonderful. I was going 7 months without porn and without masturbation. And then I slipped on the masturbation thing and repeated it. Still I am not using porn.
     
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