I have been trying to quit masturbating and have been able to do so for at max 45 days in my attempt early this year. However, I relapsed. I tried again but since then, I just have not been able to keep up with it. I honestly feel like it is interfering with my life and progress. One of the major reasons why I feel like I am not able to quit it is because somehow my inner voice just rationalizes it in the moment and I end up doing it. One of the biggest challenges I had even during my 45 day semen retention journey was the pattern of edging. I would rationalize that edging would not get in the way of me recovering from my addiction. But I feel it somewhere did. I feel like I have no desire to pursue women (which has also led me to doubt my sexuality). It feels like a painful and unproductive task to me and yet I feel like I am lonely and have not been able to develop a deep, intimate relationship ever in my life. i want to change this and if this is something that you are struggling with as well (or have overcome in the past), I’d be happy to join forces and go through this together.