24hrs of feeling CURED

Yesterday, for a reason I can't quite work out, I felt 100% healed. I spent just under a day feeling pretty much back to normal. I cannot express in words how good I felt. It is one thing to sit online and read other peoples recovery stories, but it is totally another to feel cured after years of hardship. My mind was clear, I felt energised, I was happy, I cannot remember for the life of me ever feeling so good. It sounds strange but I wanted to break down in tears at the sheer joy of feeling back to normal. Feeling so good made me realise how accustomed I have become to feeling so bad. I was (and still am) shocked at how far away I have been from my true self.

Somehow I knew that the feeling would not last (and it didn't). I haven't quite been able to piece together exactly why I suddenly felt cured. It has been almost 3 years of recovery for me, and this is just a quick post to say that recovery is worth it. It is worth the depression, the mood swings, the headaches, the migraines, the crippling loneliness, the embarrassing shrinkage, the premature ejaculation. Recovery truly is worth it. I cannot say it enough. If somebody told me that I need another year of recovery, and that I would feel the way I felt yesterday for the rest of my life, I would be more than ready to go another year. This is just a quick post to all the guys struggling to get a good streak going again, and to those who are still knee deep in a flatline please keep at it. It is well and truly worth the wait.