Apologies in advance if the title comes off arrogant or boastful.
Im 25, Ive lost my last 5 years entirely to debilitating mental health difficulties in almost total isolation, cut off from all friends and most of my family. This past 7-8 months I've been making an effort to not rot in my bed anymore, thankfully I have successfully cut out porn for a 100 days as of now, I've been working out fairly consistently, trying to fix myself but it's very hard without a proper job and weak cognitive resources that were lost during the afforementioned mental issues which makes most things difficult.
It really sucks man, im a tall good looking guy, although the gym is not helping my mental health im physically looking better than before as I've been skinny which is positive I suppose but what good is it.
I can't talk to any women or men, I feel lonely, no friends, I'm extremely awkward, overthink conversations and subtle gestures from people, feel like every one is looking at me and feel uptight everywhere, I feel like people avoid me without ever talking to me. I have zero personality maybe? I'm not smart either. I feel like I creep girls out and have no vibe towards guys. Autism? Who tf knows?
It doesn't help at all that I live in away from my home country so the conversations are not in my mother tongue which makes being myself harder which is already hard enough since I don't really know myself.
Idk I'm wasting my 20s so fast, gonna be 26 in a few months, virgin, no human touch, no social life, no fun, all while having pretty major mental health problems. Then I see all these people at the gym having fun, having a life, people on Instagram, living their youth having fun, sex etc etc. Makes me so sad.
I don't know what to really do, I miss my life that I had back in 2018-2019.
Im 25, Ive lost my last 5 years entirely to debilitating mental health difficulties in almost total isolation, cut off from all friends and most of my family. This past 7-8 months I've been making an effort to not rot in my bed anymore, thankfully I have successfully cut out porn for a 100 days as of now, I've been working out fairly consistently, trying to fix myself but it's very hard without a proper job and weak cognitive resources that were lost during the afforementioned mental issues which makes most things difficult.
It really sucks man, im a tall good looking guy, although the gym is not helping my mental health im physically looking better than before as I've been skinny which is positive I suppose but what good is it.
I can't talk to any women or men, I feel lonely, no friends, I'm extremely awkward, overthink conversations and subtle gestures from people, feel like every one is looking at me and feel uptight everywhere, I feel like people avoid me without ever talking to me. I have zero personality maybe? I'm not smart either. I feel like I creep girls out and have no vibe towards guys. Autism? Who tf knows?
It doesn't help at all that I live in away from my home country so the conversations are not in my mother tongue which makes being myself harder which is already hard enough since I don't really know myself.
Idk I'm wasting my 20s so fast, gonna be 26 in a few months, virgin, no human touch, no social life, no fun, all while having pretty major mental health problems. Then I see all these people at the gym having fun, having a life, people on Instagram, living their youth having fun, sex etc etc. Makes me so sad.
I don't know what to really do, I miss my life that I had back in 2018-2019.
