Hi,
I'm a 25 year old gay male. I've been using porn since age 14 or so, and at least half of the P has been related to a specific fetish (macrophilia). I have been PMO once a day almost every day since then, and started doing PMO twice a day the last couple years, and I realized it was getting too much.
While I saw online that M every day was pretty normal, I started talking to more guys on dating apps (Grindr) and realized once a day was above average, especially with porn. I also have finally admitted that I have PIED, even though it took me many sexual partners and lack of in person performance to convince myself it was a problem, and most likely to due to porn. I was a virgin until 21, so probably all the P with the fact that the fetish is a fantasy and not possible in real life didn't help either. I'm pretty obsessive with this fetish material. I also realize I find it difficult to be hard or orgasm while masturbating when I'm not lying or sitting down.
I really want to reboot, not only so that I won't have PIED with any in person partners, and I'm really worried that if I find a partner who is very compatible, my lack of sexual connection will ruin the potential amazing relationship. Ultimately, I want to have amazing in-person sex.
I initially started doing small 7-day reboots in the past several months because I had read about the 7-day testosterone study, and I have a really young look even though I'm 25, and I want to boost my testosterone levels. But now, I'm realizing the problem is so much bigger than that. I also thought I had undiagnosed ADHD, but I think a lot of symptoms is possibly just porn addiction. I decided to go all the way for a 90 day reboot, but only PM. I'm still open to in-person sexual experiences (although based on my track record, nothing will probably happen anyway) - after all, that's the whole point of the reboot.
I've never written or told anyone these thoughts before, and it feels like a huge relief to say this, even in just text form. If anyone else can relate, would love to hear from you or chat.
I'm a 25 year old gay male. I've been using porn since age 14 or so, and at least half of the P has been related to a specific fetish (macrophilia). I have been PMO once a day almost every day since then, and started doing PMO twice a day the last couple years, and I realized it was getting too much.
While I saw online that M every day was pretty normal, I started talking to more guys on dating apps (Grindr) and realized once a day was above average, especially with porn. I also have finally admitted that I have PIED, even though it took me many sexual partners and lack of in person performance to convince myself it was a problem, and most likely to due to porn. I was a virgin until 21, so probably all the P with the fact that the fetish is a fantasy and not possible in real life didn't help either. I'm pretty obsessive with this fetish material. I also realize I find it difficult to be hard or orgasm while masturbating when I'm not lying or sitting down.
I really want to reboot, not only so that I won't have PIED with any in person partners, and I'm really worried that if I find a partner who is very compatible, my lack of sexual connection will ruin the potential amazing relationship. Ultimately, I want to have amazing in-person sex.
I initially started doing small 7-day reboots in the past several months because I had read about the 7-day testosterone study, and I have a really young look even though I'm 25, and I want to boost my testosterone levels. But now, I'm realizing the problem is so much bigger than that. I also thought I had undiagnosed ADHD, but I think a lot of symptoms is possibly just porn addiction. I decided to go all the way for a 90 day reboot, but only PM. I'm still open to in-person sexual experiences (although based on my track record, nothing will probably happen anyway) - after all, that's the whole point of the reboot.
I've never written or told anyone these thoughts before, and it feels like a huge relief to say this, even in just text form. If anyone else can relate, would love to hear from you or chat.