a_castaway
Fapstronaut
Hello all, this is my first serious reboot attempt. Lurked the subreddit off and on for the last decade, but to my eyes half of the people there didn't really want to take this seriously, myself included. So here I am trying to do something different. The following questions are ripped from the newbie doc:
How long have you been using porn
10 years
What impact has pornography use had on your life
A lot of sexual confusion. I don't think I've seen healthy sexuality in person. All my previous sexual experience has been with strangers. Luckily I got through it unscathed, and don't have the desire to go back to hookups, at least for now.
I used it as a crutch all throughout college. I was depressed for a different reason, but porn has not helped me along in my recovery. Now I'm extremely isolated and don't have the will to put forth the energy to create even platonic relationships. Forget about sexual relationships for now because my libido and self-esteem are shot.
Why have you decided to quit using porn
I'm getting a little older and I don't want porn to be my partner for life.
I realized that it's self-defeating to ritually masturbate. I would like to actually enjoy the sexual experiences I have, rather than immediately forget about them once they've passed.
That being said, I've figured out the reasons why I use porn and would like to try accepting my sexual side for a change.
I know that when I don't use porn things generally get better, but obviously I've never tried it for long enough to really see if the hype is real.
Your chosen rebooting parameters
No porn, no masturbation for 2 weeks.
When you started or plan to start your reboot and how many days you have in your current streak
I started at midnight on the 22nd, so I'm on day 2 now.
How long have you been using porn
10 years
What impact has pornography use had on your life
A lot of sexual confusion. I don't think I've seen healthy sexuality in person. All my previous sexual experience has been with strangers. Luckily I got through it unscathed, and don't have the desire to go back to hookups, at least for now.
I used it as a crutch all throughout college. I was depressed for a different reason, but porn has not helped me along in my recovery. Now I'm extremely isolated and don't have the will to put forth the energy to create even platonic relationships. Forget about sexual relationships for now because my libido and self-esteem are shot.
Why have you decided to quit using porn
I'm getting a little older and I don't want porn to be my partner for life.
I realized that it's self-defeating to ritually masturbate. I would like to actually enjoy the sexual experiences I have, rather than immediately forget about them once they've passed.
That being said, I've figured out the reasons why I use porn and would like to try accepting my sexual side for a change.
I know that when I don't use porn things generally get better, but obviously I've never tried it for long enough to really see if the hype is real.
Your chosen rebooting parameters
No porn, no masturbation for 2 weeks.
When you started or plan to start your reboot and how many days you have in your current streak
I started at midnight on the 22nd, so I'm on day 2 now.
