My relationship is at stake and I dont want to lose my soulmate. I should mention that I am not addicted to porn I'm addicted to cheating.
Hi @omalleytac , Cheating involves a lot of work to get to the point of being with someone else. What 'reward' do you feel you receive from successfully cheating?
I can relate to those feelings - I did it many many times. I do however recall that those feelings only last a short while and then you're alone again with the only constant being the partner your with.
Hi @omalleytac I have the same problem. My porn addiction is really sex addiction. I use porn in a way to calm my urges, but I really want real sex and I looking for it all time. I love my gf, seriously, she is an incredible woman. I feel very bad about my behavior and I feel "warm fuzzy feels" too, with women... It's really difficult stop cheating. But I'm changing, is necessary. I you're looking for AP I could be. Stay strong
Cheating has its days. I was engaged once, a few years back. Yes, I loved and cared her. She touched my heart in non-explanatory ways. I loved her parents and other siblings. 2nd family. But I'm a cheat too. I search for high-class escorts. I crave sex with the younger female population. I watched porn, masturbated and the O. It impacted my behaviour and mood towards her and everyone. I became really cold and irritated. Non-communicative at times. I also kept away from my former fiancee for long period. When we were in touch, I covered my guilt and faked my honesty. She gullibly bared all the shit. At work, I am constantly grumpy and felt the whole world was against what I feel is right about my ideas and leadership. Two things occurred. Had a terrible argument with my previous management on a matter which if I would recall now is - arguably stupid. I resigned hurriedly. was threatened with a legal suit. Bad reference in the resume. My whole world came crumbling. Jobless for 7 months relying on my previous savings. Nearly had my car taken by the bank Oh yeah.. the last straw broke the camel's back. Engagement melted. She married a different man last year. Cheating has a compounding effect. The same for PMO. Be true to yourself and to everyone.
