Hi Every one, I am 26 year old male from India. I am currently working as an engineer, in India. I started watching porn almost a decade back. I used to feel good watching it, to let out my own disappointment. It became a habit and turned in to a serious addiction. By the time i realized it, i have become a serious addict. My behaviour has changed a lot. I became an introvert. Have problems with trusting people, social situations, anxious, insecure, cant focus even for 5min. I am in a cycle of (1)porn side affects, (2) start reboot with all will power i have, and (3) relapse. I dont talk to people. I just keep staring at something blankly. I lost interest in everything. I lost all my skills that i was proud of. I keep worrying about something. I have been trying quit porn and reboot. I decided many times (more than hundred times) to quit porn. I tried hard mode and every mode i read about in nofap. I relapse every time. But i can not stop trying to quit. I have to quit porn at any cost. The biggest mistake i have been doing is trying it alone. I never told anyone, i did not post it even here on nofap. I had many friends but after this behaviour changes i dont talk to them. I keep distance. I do behave well with my female friends and they are very comfortable with me. I never had any girl friend sort of thing. I never tried for anyone. I do feel lonely. At the same time, i cant go and ask my friends for company. I dont talk to even family properly. I feel like a utter failure. I dont want to blame it all on porn. I am disappointed in myself. But porn has definitely made things worse. It has put me in a loop, i cant come out of. Because of that i dont have good connection to anyone. I definitely need help. I cant seek it from people i know here. I am looking for someone (i dont mind gender, nationality, age) who has been addicted to porn for such a long time and came out of it. I may need support for a very long time (i am targeting for 90 days). I am hopeful that if i have some help i can get out of this.