Bonhart
Fapstronaut
Hello, I'm new here, I hope this place makes me feel better somehow. The reason I'm here is because I'm suffering from ED (I suspect induced by porn), and it is making me miserable.
Let me tell you a little bit of my sex life...
So, here I am, one week later, feeling like shit, with no sexual drive and heartbroken, wondering what the hell is wrong with me. I don't know if my lack of libido is causing the ED or if its the other way around. I don't understand why this is happening now. I don't know why it happened with her. I don't know if this is permanent or temporary. But I will fight this thing. Tomorrow I will start by going to the doctor and talk about it. Wish me success in this journey, please. Thanks for reading.
Let me tell you a little bit of my sex life...
I've been masturbating to internet porn since age 15, drifting through periods of fapping and flatlines (at the time I didn't knew what a flatline was).
At 23 I had my first formal relationship with a lady. We only gave each other oral pleasures and masturbated one another... I was satisfied and didn't have any erection issues. After two years, I lost interest in continuing that relationship, and we broke up. After that I came back to porn and I fapped up to two times a day, for about 2 and a half months. However, I started feeling pathetic about my self and decided to quit porn.
One and a half month later after leaving porn, I met a new lady. She was very interested in me, and I in her, and eventually we made love. I never had any issues with her, and was able to do it up to three times a day. We kept this dynamic for 9 months, seeing each other once or twice a week. After that relationship came to an end, I resumed my masturbation habits and kept at it for 1 year and 3 months, drifting through flatlines (I still didn't know what those were) and intense periods of fapping. Once again I started feeling pathetic about myself and once again I quitted porn for good.
One month after leaving porn, I met, through serendipity, a very awesome human being. This woman made me feel things I never felt in my two previous relationships... I don't know what it was, but it was pure. We kissed on first date and a week later we attempted to have sex. The first time, I had difficulties. I got hard, I put the condom on, we started doing it, so far so good, then we tried changing positions, and then I realized I wasn't hard enough to penetrate again. I took it calmly, I thought it was the stress I suffered earlier that day due to unrelated issues. The following morning, I was a little upset about the experience, but after a long session of foreplay, I attempted sex again, and this time I reached the climax, but I wasn't really feeling it. In fact, I tried to hard. Anyway, I thought that whatever happened, was already solved.
At 23 I had my first formal relationship with a lady. We only gave each other oral pleasures and masturbated one another... I was satisfied and didn't have any erection issues. After two years, I lost interest in continuing that relationship, and we broke up. After that I came back to porn and I fapped up to two times a day, for about 2 and a half months. However, I started feeling pathetic about my self and decided to quit porn.
One and a half month later after leaving porn, I met a new lady. She was very interested in me, and I in her, and eventually we made love. I never had any issues with her, and was able to do it up to three times a day. We kept this dynamic for 9 months, seeing each other once or twice a week. After that relationship came to an end, I resumed my masturbation habits and kept at it for 1 year and 3 months, drifting through flatlines (I still didn't know what those were) and intense periods of fapping. Once again I started feeling pathetic about myself and once again I quitted porn for good.
One month after leaving porn, I met, through serendipity, a very awesome human being. This woman made me feel things I never felt in my two previous relationships... I don't know what it was, but it was pure. We kissed on first date and a week later we attempted to have sex. The first time, I had difficulties. I got hard, I put the condom on, we started doing it, so far so good, then we tried changing positions, and then I realized I wasn't hard enough to penetrate again. I took it calmly, I thought it was the stress I suffered earlier that day due to unrelated issues. The following morning, I was a little upset about the experience, but after a long session of foreplay, I attempted sex again, and this time I reached the climax, but I wasn't really feeling it. In fact, I tried to hard. Anyway, I thought that whatever happened, was already solved.
A week later, we tried to have relations again. I got hard and aroused during foreplay. She proceeded to give me oral sex, and midway though it, I lost the erection. After a lot of talking, and telling her that she wasn't the problem, we didn't try anything for about 1 and a half month. In the meantime, I watched porn once ,only to test if everything was ok. I managed to reach the climax, but I wasn't really into it. In fact, I had no libido at all. When we tried having sex again, I couldn't even put the condom on. A week after that failed experience, she broke up with me. She didn't told me why, but I understood her, I can't blame her.
So, here I am, one week later, feeling like shit, with no sexual drive and heartbroken, wondering what the hell is wrong with me. I don't know if my lack of libido is causing the ED or if its the other way around. I don't understand why this is happening now. I don't know why it happened with her. I don't know if this is permanent or temporary. But I will fight this thing. Tomorrow I will start by going to the doctor and talk about it. Wish me success in this journey, please. Thanks for reading.
