I'm 27 years old and in an almost four-year relationship with my (recently wedded) wife. Five to four years ago I started nofap during the time that I dated my now ex- and also first girlfriend. I realised that I could not ejaculate during sex, had difficulties in maintaining an erection without constant stimulation and only focussed on my own pleasure. I did not admit I had an addiction, but someone pointed nofap out to me as an interesting experiment and I went along with it. I lasted 134 days and 2/3rd of the issues above were no longer issues. Only the focus on my own pleasure remained, but that also has other causes. After 134 days I relapsed and that was it. Seeing as I did not recognise my addiction for what it was and actually underplayed the effects of nofap - I rationalised that I could not ejaculate in the beginning because this was my first girlfriend and that these things simply take time - I had no reason to begin again. Now, wedded to my wife and raising a newly born child, I am (still) suffering. I haven't watched porn for a long while and ejaculation is not an issue, but masturbation causes me to withdraw sexually and especially emotionally. I really want to stop this withdrawal and my first step was the recognition of my addiction. This brought me here. The next step is to actually stop (I'm on day 3). To this end I am looking for an AP. I can use Telegram or email. PS: Just as a side note, I also recognised my gaming addiction. While I stopped gaming a long time ago, I never really admitted that I was addicted and the longing to play a game was always in the back of my head. So I deleted all my games from my computer and told myself that even if I have the time and space I need to play a game, I won't do it. I think that for many nofappers gaming addiction exists next to porn/masturbation addiction. This is not the place to discuss gaming addiction and so I am not looking for an AP in that area, but if an AP happens to be in the process of ridding herself of gaming addiction, then that would be a welcome addition.