Count SoDooku
New Fapstronaut
Hello fellow Fapstronauts! This is my first time creating an account here but I've been frequenting this forum for about a year, I never felt the need to create an account here but reading through all your stories, struggles and most of all your successes helped reassure me that there was something more to life than DNA soaked paper towels, and indeed I got to witness it's beauties first hand.
During this past year I went on a 270 day hard mode streak I accomplished more than I ever have in my life including...
- Becoming a gym addict and losing 60 pounds
- Getting a job after 10 months of unemployment
- Returning to school for my childhood passion and having the highest grades I've had since elementary school
- Cleaning up my diet, learning how to cook all my meals when taco bell was all i knew
- Meditating daily and getting to a level of self-awareness i never knew i could achieve
- Having girls actually HIT ON ME!! (this still shocks me)
But the most important thing I learnt from Nofap was learning how to FAIL and face those failures, Nofap forced me to deal with all of the emotions i repressed for so many years, with my favorite coping mechanism gone I was forced to deal with all the depression, anger, and sadness, with what had become of my life. But I was also able to enjoy the extreme satisfaction of overcoming my self-inflicted wounds and pushing myself to be the best version of myself I could possibly be.
But alas, I sit here after a 3 session PMO binge on my 25th birthday, ignoring text and birthday wishes from my closest friends and family. My apartment is a mess, im doing everything possible to not work on my research project (which is due tonight), I have a shoulder injury that’s kept me out of the gym for 8 months, I haven't left my apartment in 3 days, I stopped meditating, but worst is Im practically a porn addict again, and nowhere was this more apparent to me then when during one of my sessions my little brother called my phone to wish me happy birthday, and I didn't pick up, nor do I have the spine to call him back.
I don’t feel anything right now but when I go to school and work tomorrow it’s all going to hit me, I need your help fellow fapstronauts, there’s more to life than this, and the saddest part is I was already experiencing it.
During this past year I went on a 270 day hard mode streak I accomplished more than I ever have in my life including...
- Becoming a gym addict and losing 60 pounds
- Getting a job after 10 months of unemployment
- Returning to school for my childhood passion and having the highest grades I've had since elementary school
- Cleaning up my diet, learning how to cook all my meals when taco bell was all i knew
- Meditating daily and getting to a level of self-awareness i never knew i could achieve
- Having girls actually HIT ON ME!! (this still shocks me)
But the most important thing I learnt from Nofap was learning how to FAIL and face those failures, Nofap forced me to deal with all of the emotions i repressed for so many years, with my favorite coping mechanism gone I was forced to deal with all the depression, anger, and sadness, with what had become of my life. But I was also able to enjoy the extreme satisfaction of overcoming my self-inflicted wounds and pushing myself to be the best version of myself I could possibly be.
But alas, I sit here after a 3 session PMO binge on my 25th birthday, ignoring text and birthday wishes from my closest friends and family. My apartment is a mess, im doing everything possible to not work on my research project (which is due tonight), I have a shoulder injury that’s kept me out of the gym for 8 months, I haven't left my apartment in 3 days, I stopped meditating, but worst is Im practically a porn addict again, and nowhere was this more apparent to me then when during one of my sessions my little brother called my phone to wish me happy birthday, and I didn't pick up, nor do I have the spine to call him back.
I don’t feel anything right now but when I go to school and work tomorrow it’s all going to hit me, I need your help fellow fapstronauts, there’s more to life than this, and the saddest part is I was already experiencing it.
