I am now terrified of this problem. Because the same loop gets repeated time and again, and I need someone else to talk to when I deal with those urges, I can't go beyond 5-7 days at a time and desperately need to extend it manifold. Slowly I got into all weird kinds of porn, and now I don't even get hard from that also. We can talk about this over telegram or some other safe app. We need to open up, so that both of us can have some idea about how we got here and where do we want to go now.