Hi, I have been stuck in a destructive loop since I was 20! It was always on and off and some sessions were worse than others. The guilt built up each time and depression soon set in. I was underproductive because of it and feel like it has hindered my development immensely. It has been a few weeks since I last relapsed. The urges have started once more so I feel I need to surround myself with positivity. I am going to close this laptop now and turn off the lights. Nice to meet you all.