Hi all, I was 13 years old when I first saw pornography, I am 41 now and it is still haunting me. I was riding my bicycle to school and a truck drove by and threw out about 10 hardcore porn magazines. I can honestly say I hate that man for the demon he unleashed on me! I was always shy and suffering from severe social anxiety; porn became my sexual outlet because it was less stressful than dealing with girls. It has led me down a rabbit hole of shame and pain. My first married ended and I can say my secret porn addiction kept me from ever being able to be truly intimate with my first wife. Now I am in my second marriage and I truly love my current wife and do not want to lose her. She has approached me and says she is lonely, and misses me, wants us to have more sex. I have to quit porn and masturbation and break free of this vicious cycle!