28 years of pain!

Discussion in 'New to NoFap' started by FedXup!, May 16, 2019.

  1. FedXup!

    FedXup! New Fapstronaut

    Hi all,
    I was 13 years old when I first saw pornography, I am 41 now and it is still haunting me. I was riding my bicycle to school and a truck drove by and threw out about 10 hardcore porn magazines. I can honestly say I hate that man for the demon he unleashed on me! I was always shy and suffering from severe social anxiety; porn became my sexual outlet because it was less stressful than dealing with girls. It has led me down a rabbit hole of shame and pain. My first married ended and I can say my secret porn addiction kept me from ever being able to be truly intimate with my first wife. Now I am in my second marriage and I truly love my current wife and do not want to lose her. She has approached me and says she is lonely, and misses me, wants us to have more sex. I have to quit porn and masturbation and break free of this vicious cycle!
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  2. LakeMichigan

    LakeMichigan Fapstronaut

    @FedXup! welcome to nofap. Remember this day and it is the exact opposite day of what you have experienced when you were just 13 years old. However, there will be differences though. It might have been easy to go downhill but it will be difficult to climb back up. There will be setbacks but on top of the mountain you will have your self worth and a beautiful marriage waiting for you.
    For starters, create a journal in 40+ age group and keep writing daily/regularly until you get some decent streak going. You will gain a lot of skills and knowledge along the way.
    I wish you good luck!
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  3. Pashka

    Pashka Fapstronaut

    Welcome @FedXup! Your story is very similar to mine. I have also compare this addiction to a demon. I was able to quit alcohol, tobacco, drugs without blinking. For some reason, porn will not let me go.

    The stories and support of the men in this movement are immensely helpful to me. Even after seven days without PMO, I feel lighter and more free.

    Good luck to you on your journey. We are all in this together.
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