Rebalance1
New Fapstronaut
It's an exhausting time. I think it's mostly due to self concept and the associations I've attributed to how much I DON'T want to be the porn addicted, sex-stimulation addicted fiend that I am. Maybe it's the physical impact. Maybe it's both.
Either way, I'm fucking exhausted. I've been on nofap years ago and it worked really well. I felt SO great when I lasted a month or so without anything.
The last time I had a significant streak was probably in 2019. This was right before I got into a major relationship and was shamed for my addiction by my now ended 3 year relationship. This relationship could have been something great had my partner understood the addiction and we worked through it together. I was shamed, and I used through my entire relationship without their knowing - with active deception - and this can obviously never enable the idealistic, happy functioning relationship I imagine myself to be a part of.
Anyway. So now I'm here again. The final bastion. I hope I can do this for the sake of my future self and my future selfs happiness, particularly in love, but in self identity and concept too.
Happy to have a chat to anyone as well. I find that I am stronger when I can talk to those with highly relatable experiences and those who offer and want compassion.
Thanks all.
Either way, I'm fucking exhausted. I've been on nofap years ago and it worked really well. I felt SO great when I lasted a month or so without anything.
The last time I had a significant streak was probably in 2019. This was right before I got into a major relationship and was shamed for my addiction by my now ended 3 year relationship. This relationship could have been something great had my partner understood the addiction and we worked through it together. I was shamed, and I used through my entire relationship without their knowing - with active deception - and this can obviously never enable the idealistic, happy functioning relationship I imagine myself to be a part of.
Anyway. So now I'm here again. The final bastion. I hope I can do this for the sake of my future self and my future selfs happiness, particularly in love, but in self identity and concept too.
Happy to have a chat to anyone as well. I find that I am stronger when I can talk to those with highly relatable experiences and those who offer and want compassion.
Thanks all.