this is a painful subject. On one hand we are humans, social creatures who crave and need love, companionship etc, but on the other we need to progress and become our own person. if you are obsessed with a relationship you are evidently lonely and love sick, (this thread is loneliness do yeah obv) but realistically you need to understand alot of modern women, usually younger like 20s. these girls just want to have fun with guy and live carefree in their early years and c'mon don't we all? You do don't you? You said you want several women, you wanna have fun like them, so just make that energy your focus, you're inexperienced but so was everyone else at some point, but horniness says "fk that". I cant give you expert advice anyhow, I'm 21, no kiss or relationship. But i have something, a girl crushed on me in college, never spoke to her. That's confidence for me. you had a bird in bed with you 7 years ago had had sex right? Be proud of that bro. so a summary as another guy said, we all wanna have fun when we're young and you're around 33% into your life, women at 30s are more serious than those younger bunnies, so maybe date at women your age or slightly older? good luck i suppose.