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29 Years old. Porn to Escort. 17 Years of watching porn

Discussion in 'Porn Addiction' started by MovingOnFromThePast, Sep 27, 2020.

  1. MovingOnFromThePast

    MovingOnFromThePast Fapstronaut

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    Who would of thought that YOU and I are here. 17 years of watching porn is truly sad to tell you the truth. You know I would never thought when I was just getting into college that I would hire an escort later on in life. You know I would never thought that I would still be watching porn 17 years later when i was in middle school. Its truly upsetting writing this out. Failure after failure only becomes a bigger problem and it keeps on spiraling when I try to mask the pain by hiring an escort which leads to shame. Shame is something that will lead to another dark realm. I always ask myself what went wrong. Continuing this route of watching porn only leads to escort for me and leads nothing but eternal pain. Waking up with Shame, Guilt and Regret everyday is something thats very difficult to live with as time goes on... I find it so hilarious that I know the answer to my happiness but never achieve the other side because its like im truly stuck in hell.

    It is time for me to start not watch porn anymore and endure this new pain because I know the pain of porn for the past 17 years. I literally have no other choice anymore because if i continue this porn to escort life, i just simply know that i will be in that dark realm forever(death) and never got to live my life to my true potential. Wouldnt that suck if you died and never truly reached your full potential? Imagine if you were being judge by GOD himself and he had a book about your life and read it out to you. I would be a fucking villain in my book, the kid who grew up becoming a porn addict and a trick.

    I will write out a new book about myself for anyone who judges which is ultimately myself that judges everyday looking in that mirror. I will be the villain that becomes the hero.
     

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