Hi New guy here. Happy this community exist! The problem: Since my 14th i'm fapping and increased more with porn since my 17th. So I have trouble in social interaction and maintaining relationships. As I learned over time after some soulsearching this was due to Porn and Fapping. 1. Due to brainfog my memory is shit now and when in conversation with old friends, I can't remember lot of key moments we experiences together. 2. Due to anxiety, I never really was there in the moment with others, and over time I didn't develop the same social skills my peers have. Because of my lack of social skills, anxiety and low self-esteem I never had a girlfriend. 3. And all the times I got to have sex, I had trouble with PIED. Turning point: - I realized my mind is overstimulated. Now when I'm think about it in hindsight when I got tipsy/ drunk when going out, I was countering my overstimulated mind. Then I was present in the moment and had some really amazing memories with friends. But I also had lots of brainfog due to to much drinking and this is just not sustainable longterm. - Last year I came in contact with the nofap idea. I gave it a try. And I reached a no PMO streak of 4 weeks. This was the first time since my first fap I achieved this! And I was in a state where I was naturally more present, less anxious, where I'am genuine grateful to be alive. A state where I'm happy of 'being', instead of going after things that think will make me happy. A state where I found inner peace but also the driver of self-motivation. This streak was the real eye-opener! Some of my friends even mentioned I was more open and more talkative. > unfortunately, i set a goal to fap after 4 weeks as a reward. But this was a mistake. I went to old habits. I know now Porn and Masturbation can never be the reward... Goal: Trust the Process my goals: - no PMO 90 days - learning more social skills by reading more and practicing in real life Personal goals I already mastered (to minimize stimuli): - Morning cold shower - I don't have TV/Netflix - Facebook deleted - Instagram 5 min attention reminder This is me If you took the time to read my story, thanks a lot! What was your reason/goal to start your journey? The people I interact with deserve better I can be better, I will be better.