29th day , but ...

So I am on 29th day of not using porn today but my Nofap monk mode ended on 19th Dec because I felt my one ball was paining so much like I had blue balls so I had no choice than to release my thing. So I simply took out my penis out and it started dropping. And some strokes and more semen can oit then i felt relieved from the pain. And yesterday I was getting so much urge I was alone in a room I just took out my penis and laid on the bed but didn't touch my penis. But to tell you that I ejaculated without touching it and I know how to do it so I just did it yesterday. So that streak broke but I didn't watch porn for 28 days now it's 29th day , and after 30 days of this I will switch to Nofap hard mode no masturbation too..

 

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