Almost 3days -> I edged a lot -> reached the point where all I could think about was sex fantasies -> decided that its not helping me -> relapsed I am going AGAIN! I have to be giga disciplined with my thoughts. I have the strategy, but I somehow cant stick to it. DAY 0
Day 0, I am in the participate I was masterbate before sleep - to stop that I wake up early so that when I go into bed and sleep quickly And I was porn at 5 pm - at that I left from my sit and go for walk I come back and write my posy of Day 1
DAY 0 What can I say. I did exactly the same mistakes again -> woke up -> picked up my phone -> browsed news -> clicked on some spicy headlines, saw some spicy stuff (not nude) -> didnt get up -> played a bit -> realized what I am doing -> counted to 3 -> didnt get up! -> edging -> fighting -> said: yeah I already kind of slipped, I have no streak -> fuck it -> thats obv bs reasoning So I know exactly what I am supposed to do. It also seems like there is some certainty that I wont do it Anyway the most important is, that today I really feel the difference between me starting the day with fapping or not. I feel so unmotivated rn, tired, weak. These are the reasons to stay away from it. I want to be again on decent streak with that constant feeling of energy and hunger.
Day 0.5/3 : I spent atleast 1 hrs to watch porn every day but today when ever I feel tired or feel bore I listened music or take a nap This way I save myself by not watching porn vedio This makes me feel proud, energetic and happy that I started the journey and I feel positive vibes that I never start fap again in my life (this is my half day post) And every day I masturbation before sleep Now When I write this article I am in the the library let hopes that I avoid masturbation and take good night sleep and wake up with new energy and focus Tomorrow I post what happens with me. Thanks for your support ❤️
Day 1/3 Every night before sleep I masturbations But yesterday night I don't masturbations before sleep As results I go into deep sleep But I wake up at midnight and masturbate unknowningly I am very happy that I take very small step toward Nofap jonuner But sadly fell down again in this trap Come back again at Day 0. Happy to see small changes in me. Bye thanks for your support
