[3-CHALLENGE] THE THREE DAYS CHALLENGE !

Not doing great with NF at the moment. Got to 6 days and relapsed really late/early this morning. Pretty clear lesson here - I stayed up and felt "too tired to actually get up and go to bed" and instead played on my phone until I was tempted. I've really gotta work on my sleep routine and stay off the devices when I'm really tired!

So here I go: Day 0/3

 

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Holy fucking hell!!!
I worked all day, got tired and mild headache.
Fantasies appeared and I just couldnt help it. Started edging, realized wtf I am doing and stopped.
Urges got stronger obviously and I couldnt control it. Also felt like I already failed, because edging = prone masturbation in my case and this is what I want to quit.

Honestly when I think about it, I relapsed because:
1) Worked too much, got tired, headache and wasnt able to continue working
2) I had 0 activities to do - didnt want to watch movies/read books, cant go outside - injured
So the main reason was just nothing to do. Combined a bit with the strong fantasies and its just so fucking easy to kill time with proning instead of reading books and doing something productive.

I took headache pills and going to read something.
I must keep fighting. Lately I gave up too early too often.

 

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Day 3 completed

 

DAY 0 Starting again!
-> I can recommend watching youtube channel einzelganger - its about philosophy and I noticed that when I am down, in a "fuck everything" state of mind, it helps.

N1 goal is to prevent acting on any mild urges so I wont create then danger zone very early.

 

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Day 2/3 going strong

 

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Day 3/3.