I could vomit! Ok, maybe not everything is so shitty as it appears to me. Probably I should be grateful and happy that some things work out, some things are good, beautiful, interesting ... and everything could be so much worse of course. I just wish I would be able to abstain from this toxic habit and from other habits that kill my productivity, my health and so on. Is it really so impossible for me? I can't believe that and I won't accept that. I'm sick of writing about myself and to myself to no avail! But it can't be helped. At the moment his is the only place for me, where I can make myself accountable for pa recovery. Anyway, this is a new start. One day is already over. While I write this I'm laying in bed already. I took the device with me in bed and so if I hadn't make a new resolution I would definitely pmo again, although I did it already yesterday and the day before. It's not difficult now to make one day without but at least I can say, that actively recovering makes a little difference. I admit, it's actually very little and that's my problem. I can abstain now, then and then during the afternoon and again in the night. It works on many occasions. But it is simply not enough to make even a small streak. Let's count the days. Then it will be two days with ease and with enough care I will reach three in the blink of an eye.
It's going to be alright. The fact that you are here means you are willing to make a positive change in your life.
I see how I get distracted, how I'm unable to just go to bed at an early hour, how frustration comes up. But at least I'm not using porn. Hours before 3 days full.
