3 weeks in and weakening

Discussion in 'Porn Addiction' started by KevR24, Mar 26, 2020.

  1. KevR24

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    Today marks 3 weeks and I’ve been doing great up until yesterday. I haven’t done anything yet that I would consider a relapse, but my minds first line of defense seems gone and I can feel that I am now having to actively toe the line. Simply looking for some reaffirmation, honestly.
     
  2. again

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    Three weeks is great. Congratulations. Just think how rewarding an entire month will be!
     
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  3. Dude, three weeks is amazing! Focus on the positives of your journey (I'm sure you've already experienced improvements in your life during your streak). Focus on why you're doing this. Focus on how your life will be better without this addiction. And try to keep yourself and your mind busy.
     
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  4. phwrancesco

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    keep goin g
     
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  5. KevR24

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    It feels like time slows down as you get to the deeper parts of your streak. Like I look up and I’m like... are you serious? Today at 10pm will be my 23rd completed day, and I just like six week ago it was day 18. This is definitely a period of some struggle.
     
  6. KevR24

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    Part of my job is managing an IG page, so I have to deal with it as a necessary evil. I usually just stay off my personal page best I can and delete the app when I’m not using it.

    Last night was a complete war with it however, but I prevailed. It’s not on my phone, and I have my eyes on celebrating the arrival of day 25 tonight at 9:43.
     
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  7. EnvironmentalLayer8

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    Say man your doing good. Take some time to resolve your situation that’s triggering you. I know what’s like to feel great temptation and feeling like there is no other option. If it help try sex/ porn addiction support group, go outside and get some fresh air. Take some time to realize why your temptation keeps hitting you. If you can find some reasons right them down talk to someone me or someone on NoFap. Get irritated with this thing cause sometimes it takes a little emotional encouragement. Be fierce and be brave my friend you can do this take the tiny baby steps to walk away so you can see yourself in a healthier light.
     
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  9. otherjay92

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    Stick with it man, losing yourself to the addiction isn't worth it. I kicked it at one time and fell back into it and repeated this cycle with the edges of my addiction becoming more and more fuzzy until last Friday, when my entire world came crashing down. Seriously, it seems ok to go back to it now but I can assure you its not worth it. Quit now, while its your choice and not theirs....
     
  10. KevR24

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    Passed up week 4 last night. My only PG slip ups have been lingering too long on certain social profiles of getting stuck starting on stuff on TV, but nothing at all that borders on legit P, so I figure if I can clean up the little stuff I’ll be riding pretty. No real P or M at all. I feel more or less uninterested in the thought of that. My eye is on day 36, which would be the longest I’ve gone EVER, since I first entered this disease at age 13.
     
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    Tonight was difficult. I spent too much of my day being mindless playing video games, which I NEVER DO, but my wife wanted to play so we did and then I kept playing into the night. She went to bed and I started to grow weak. I googled things I shouldn’t have, surfed *around* garbage for a fake thrill.

    I finally pulled myself out of it and I’m here now. I’m done for the night and I’m not letting ten minutes of doing that ruin a months worth of good work. Until tomorrow, everyone.
     
  12. again

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    Good for you. That's a battle won that will strengthen you for the next one.
     
  13. KevR24

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    Normally I would call last night “the first of the snowball effect” and I’m fighting that today.

    I’m afraid my brain is set back and all this over the top crap. Usually that inspires me to just fully relapse, but bc of this community and bc I know that’s not what I want I will stand firm no matter what today.
     
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  14. modernstore99

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    You feeling shittier each day is a sign that what you are doing is WORKING. Your porn-addicted brain realizes what it's trying to do, and is trying to make you quit. DO NOT QUIT. Everyone goes through this phase. Tbh, my overall mood only started improving around day 60. Ik it's hard, but your life is going to be so much better once this reboot is over and you start having sex again.

    I'll link some articles about research done on guys rebooting. Just know that this is normal, feeling shitty is a sign that you are healing, and that you will get over this just like every one has in the past.

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