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3 weeks In, my mind is going wild

Discussion in 'New to NoFap' started by aureliuswankius, Jun 10, 2020.

  1. aureliuswankius

    aureliuswankius New Fapstronaut

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    Hi guys, finally made the decision to create an account here, I tried a couple of times the nofap challenge but couldn’t keep it going more than a week or two, I’m currently aiming for the 90 days challenge.

    As a background let’s just say that, porn and wanking ruined my life, I found when I was 9 porn on a relative’s computer and started like that, and browsing more I found a lot of gay porn, I have a 12 years addiction since up then... resulting in an inexistent dating life, PE, and social anxiety when it comes to girls.

    I think I’ve even developed HODC, I don’t know if I’m straight or Bi but I’m attracted to women sexually, physically and emotionally, wether men are disgusting to me unless I’m horny... and the problem is whenever I’m horny I have some gay scenes coming in my head, even wet dreams when I try to maintain my streaks during nofap are like that, It’s really fucking with my mind

    I had sex with both men and women and every time I O’d I felt disgusting and ashamed with guys with no reasons (doesn’t happen with women) but the PE over that doesn’t help. I’m afraid that I did it just because it was easy hooking up with guys and I regret it every fuckn day !

    Also, I must be a 5/10 at best, not helping either...

    So I’m trying to do a reboot, using my summer for it, gonna be busy so it should be fine, hope it’s gonna help, the only thing I want is to be able to maintain a healthy relationship with a girl and please her, it’s quite far away from where I stand for now.

    I’m not ready to see a therapist but I will depending of the results of this 90 days reboot !

    Just posting to free my mind a bit and acknowledge myself...

    Wishing good luck to anyone going through it at the time !
     
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  2. One Eyed Owl

    One Eyed Owl Distinguished Fapstronaut

    Welcome to NoFap!!!
     
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  3. | Nico |

    | Nico | Distinguished Fapstronaut
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    Hi and welcome to the community :) wish you all the best on your journey, if you have any questions or concerns please dont hesitate to ask. Take care
     
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