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5 years ago I met this girl and she became my first girlfriend. I was naive & young because at the time I wasn’t exposed or cared to know about becoming intimate with someone. & yes I would watch P & MO before I met her but not as often a couple times a week or few times a month, sometimes once a month & I did have episodes where it would be 3 times a day Maybe a couple times a week but they wouldn’t happen often, I’d have to be extremely bored and alone. I would usually hook up if an opportunity arose. But back to my first girlfriend, I went into that relationship in the best shape of my life, I couldn’t even remember the last time I pmo when I met her at the time. But she was not what I thought & seeing as to how this was my first intimate relationship, it was not the best. See, I thought wow in the beginning all the sex was great, I had thought it was normal almost 12-14 times a week. I was naive and couldn’t say no. 4 months into the relationship She revealed to me she had a P blog. We dealt with it and we kept it moving, I never realized this would impact me in the long run. She resented me for telling her I didn’t like her P Blog but all that did was make her want more of me and lust took over trust for her. Fast forward towards our last year together, I was tired and exhausted of all the demanding sex and she blew up how she stopped her blog because of me and how I wasn’t giving it to her as often etc etc It was the beginning of the end. She eventually cheated and found a new source, that only made me realize that she was the addict and as much as I tried During the relationship, she couldn’t let go of the sex & pmo. Once our relationship ended without realizing it, the pmo that she brought to the relationship instilled in me. The first month after being broken up I would pmo 2-3 times a day, I started feeling weak, I developed a cyst in my leg, acne all over my back, my gym workouts decreased. But I would still workout and continued to live an active lifestyle but not the one I originally had. Because I would somewhat maintain active and still pmo I was constantly drained, mentally emotionally I kept falling and not realizing it because I didn’t care, I felt I would be single for years. After the first month I would still pmo Almost on occasion 2-3 times a day. Then enter New Player, I met her through sport and I’ve known her for a couple years and we hit it off but pmo was still there. Every time we would hook up especially in the beginning I would DE and then it became ED. I was shocked surprise my new girl was smoking hot, she had an amazing personality strong character and very sound with a good head on her shoulders so I couldn’t believe what was happening to me. She felt she wasn’t sufficient enough or she was inadequate and I kept trying thinking it’ll go away while my pmo wouldn’t. Eventually I told my new girl and she was very understanding about it she said ok told me to heal myself And she wouldn’t think much of it and said she was ok with doing a sex fast too She told me she never watches P and rarely M , we are still hanging out doing all the cute couple shit lol I’m currently on day 4 of my 40 day pmo-sex fast and after day 40 I hope to never PM again! I’ve been reading alot more and am trying to get back to my original fitness routine. I’m so happy I told my new girl and she’s been great about. I’m doing this for myself! Pmo has hurt me before and I don’t want it to hurt anyone else especially those around me and those I care about. I wish everyone on here the best

 

This is Day 8!!!! I have successfully completed my first week of no pmo, there have been a lot of images from tv & insta but they haven’t trigged me or anything, I feel like I have flatlined as people call it & my sex drive or libido is low but I am getting random erections these past 3 days alsooo my eyes seem clearer and my acne is going away It’s basically dried up!! Also I have been communicating a lot more with my new girl our conversations have started flowing so much better Brain fog is still there some days but not as strong & I can feel my anxiety & depression like feelings dwindle! The results are huge! I am aiming for 40 days! I have also quit eating meat & No coffee, I have been with a cold my first week so haven’t hit the gym yet but I can feel my energy level has been great!

 

2 weeks in, my libido has been increasing a lot this second week, morning wood occasions are increasing. I’ve been battling this cold but my energy levels are super high, I’ve been reading a lot and started playing chess haha but I need to start working out asap! Still not eating meat and not drinking coffee No alch no weed, I can feel my body and mind start craving dopamine like a caveman! having intense make out sessions with the girl definitely makes this challenge even greater lol

 

This is Week 3! The beginning of the week my libido has been super high! But not good, I got a text from a girl that isn’t the girl I’m dating now, she gave me oral & I ejaculated It felt great like I’m good again because the girl I’m dating now wasn’t able to get me that way. I have not P or M but I guess I did O because of that. I’m not completely sure how I feel about it but I felt a lot better afterwards because I was able to receive oral. The girl I’m dating now & I aren’t planning to having sex till next month. I’m feeling better mentally though in terms of becoming more comfortable with another female without the stress or thought of p or m. Because I’m also feeling better physically I have started doing kegels. I still want to put off sex as much as I can after my oral incident & in hopes that I can continue seeing and feeling the benefits deeper as time goes on.