3 Years...

3 years...

I've learned about NoFap about 3 years ago.
3 years ago, I was so addicted to pornography and masturbation that I do it at an average of three times per day. One, before I go to school. Two, when I go home from school. And three, before I go to sleep. Been doing this routine for almost 10 years of my life since I was in high school.
3 years ago, I was very skinny, I am 5 ft 4 in and I only weigh 55 kg.
3 years ago, I can't even lift 10 lbs plates for a bench press and run a mile with no breaks.
3 years ago, I have so much acne in my face. Now, thankfully, my acne has lessened and I only get occasional breakouts.
3 years ago, I spend most of my time alone, in my room, or in an apartment and my life would revolve around studying, going to school, and occasional eating alone outside by myself.

3 years...

I was hooked because of the benefits listed from NoFap... Sexual attraction, More focus, Happier life, Fulfillment, More muscle gains.
But it was more. I was so addicted to fapping that it was so hard for me to abstain. I needed to have something to learn about myself. About my addiction. About my underlying issues. About the problems, I was masking with fapping.

A year ago, I started my self-help workshop on Recovery Nation. It was full of insights and information. And it was a great workshop to start the recovery toward better health.

I am still on this journey. I still fail sometimes, but learning from my mistakes is what's important for me in this journey. I am not fully recovered and have not achieved the recommended 90 days for a complete reboot of the brain.

But from that guy, who jacks of on average of three times a day, to someone who can achieve 2 weeks of not acting out and have developed some good habits that are a part of his values, I am proud of what I have achieved and I just wanted to share my progress.

On a weekly basis, this is what I currently do.
- Morning Meditations
- Gym workouts and Nutrition
- Going out with a small group of friends
- Going to my relatives, especially to my cousins
- Reading books, more on Developmental Trauma and Emotional Health. (I want to learn more on why I can't share myself fully with people when I socialize)
- Having time in nature

The journey has been rough for me, and sometimes, I would really like to give up on this and just let it be. But I know that I will never achieve fulfillment when I continue my compulsive behavior of Porn and Masturbation.