Day 0. I just relapsed after a 40 days streak. I learned from the past and willing to continue this journey. It doesn't matter what day you're on, you will get urges. My mistake was for the past 20 days I haven't handle my urges well by sticking to my routine, but instead I'm being lazy and unmotivated. That laziness made me anxious and stressed out and I'm just relying on my willpower which will not last long. This relapse is a big lesson and a relief because without this relapse, I wouldn't even know what I was doing wrong. I will stick to my routine and not being a lazy person. Hopefully I can be a lot stronger than I was before. No more bullsh*t !!