[30-CHALLENGE] THE THIRTY DAYS CHALLENGE !

Day 6/30

feeling anxious, angry, and depressed last night. I can't sleep well.

 

OK after relaps a few days ago, kind of back on track. Not feeling as good as before the relapse, of course.. But here we go again buddies. Day 2.

 

Day 1
Starting fresh and doing a mid summer, mid year reboot!

 

Again on day 0.

 

19

 

Day 15 completed.

 

Day 0 again. I am losing again and again.

 

2!

 

Day 0 (Relapse after 7 days strik)

I never lose track. I climbed the 7th of this 30th-floor building. I just slipped I'm not dead. I'll take another try with a different stairway.

Today, 4th July 2022

 

Day 1

 

Day 2

 

Day 16 completed. But I had terrifying dreams where I watched porn, felt guilty about breaking my streak and watched again in avoidance of guilt, and then some hookup. During the dream I actually released in my bed and woke up dead embarrassed. I had to recall my entire day's events to be sure I didn't do any PMO for real and that my streak is still on. Thank goodness, I'm clean. Maybe these dreams are a part of recovery but they seem very tricky. I'll keep pushing through to overcome this phase.

 

Day 9/30

 

Day 0,but I try again.

 

Day 3 It was hairy for a bit but I got through it.

 

Day 17 completed. I feel closer to my goal. But one day at a time. I'll keep going.

 

22

 

Starting this challenge because recently I have been jumping back into old bad habits, and jerking off more, I also have watched a bit of porn which is something I stopped doing for two years, I don't like that I'm falling back into this evil practice. I will be starting this challenge to increase my nofap motivation as i have lost some due to believing that I have defeated my pornography, and masturbation addiction, and because I want to go back to my long streaks, I will update everyday, and beat this challenge in one go.

 

THREE!

 

Aight, let's get this bread. Day 22 babyyyy!