[30-CHALLENGE] THE THIRTY DAYS CHALLENGE !

Day 21 completed.

 

11 days now. Felt lots of urges last night but managed to resist!

 

I would like to participate as well.

 

Day 22 completed.

 

Day 1

 

Starting day 1, today I broke my 21 days streak but it was due to my fault because I neglected the thought that I knew the task I would do could lead to trigger but I ignored it. But now hardcore mode 30 days, starting today!!!!

 

Day 1 completed

 

27

 

Days 2/30
Back on the track again

 

Day 12 complete

 

27 LETS HIT IT

 

Day 0 again.

 

1 day completed

 

Day 23 completed! Yesterday, the urges were so strong and persuasive, it was a long and hard battle. In general, I wouldn't be able to recognize thoughts like "just some memes" or "maybe a youtube video" as harmful. But since my last relapse I have become familiar with the pattern. In analogy, standing at a river bank (in my lows) I naturally feel the urge to dip my feet in the water. Once I do, that sweet pleasure asks me to take a step further, maybe to knee level, and enjoy the pleasant current. But it doesn't stop there, maybe I can dip myself to waist level? Whats the harm anyway? I am having a great time! Yes, but the currents are too strong now, for me to handle. A small perturbation will throw me off my feet and drown me. This is what happened during my last relapse.

So yesterday when I was at the river bank, and I felt the urge to nearly drown myself, I decided to look at the trees around me, hear the bird songs, feel the sand, etc -- there was beauty there too. Although it takes much effort to do one (low dopamine) thing when you have a killer urge to do another (high dopamine), I pushed throughout the day. In the end of the day, I walked back home without having dipped even a toe. I feel a sense of pride, strength, and happiness as I defeated the urges. I know there will be more days that will test me, but I will remember the lessons and will fight them hard. Best wishes to everyone on their journey!!

 

Day 0

 

0/30
Broke a 10 days streak yesterday, I would say b/c I couldn't go to the gym & do my other routines b/c I was sick. And boredom was a reason for my relapse. I will definitely work on an alternative plan when I am unable to practice my routines (high dopamine activities mainly)

 

You will make it this time!

 

Day 2 completed.

 

28

 

Day 1