[30-CHALLENGE] THE THIRTY DAYS CHALLENGE !

Completed my 21 days challenge, ready for 30 days challenge. Day 0/30.

 

Day 6/30

 

Day 16/30...

 

Day 1​

 

day 13..working on my side hustle instead of fapping

 

Day 12/30.

 

Interesting enough, after 53 days of no pmo I accidentally saw a pussy at the beach. Now the urges to do pm are coming back and they are really strong... I even had fantastic sex with my wife but with no difference... the urges are still there. It's crazy, my mind really begs me to give in right now and I apparently try to remind myself of that wonderful and nice relief I get when I do pm. How nice it is. How red the roses are and how beautiful it can be...

A relapse for me has never ever been easy. I continue for hours until I am completely exhausted, I wake up the day after and I'm feeling extremely tired, then I continue where I left off until I am completely exhausted again. If I have stayed away from porn for a long time, it takes a long time for me to get back to that miserable last place where I was when I decided to quit porn. No matter how long the way is, I am really working my way through the shit until I get there in record time. Everything starts with this nice and soft temptation to watch some beautiful girls... but it always ends up in the most wicked porn I can find... I dig the whole a bit deeper and realises "ok, I am really at the very end, I should stop this", then I get back on track with my life again for a few days and keep the hours spent on porn on a level that I can maintain for months or maybe even years. Then after some time I watch something even more wicked that makes me feel so sad that I really feel that I should stop this sick addiction...

Last time this happened I found NoFap, thank god. Next time what is going to help me then? Then answer is easy: NOTHING. Because there will NEVER be a next time. I am never going to relapse again. I am NOT going to give in again. Never ever. I fucking hate this cycle. I have a wonderful family with a wonderful wife... I'm smart, strong and healthy... it's just this private part of myself that no one knows... that I've been watching porn for the last 25 years... I am here at NoFap to break this cycle. I am not giving in again. I am here to stay.

So tomorrow is day 54. Then comes 55, 56, 57... there are NO zeroes in this sequence, it's obvious. It's a monotonically increasing number sequence and I will prove it.

 

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I think I keep hoping that one day I will wake up and will find the dragon has been defeated. Instead, I wake up only to have to gird myself to fight the dragon once again.
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Let's start.
Day 1: In progress...

 

2/30 I like how my mind is brave when I am on a strike!!!!

 

Day 3

 

day 11/30, staying away from triggers

 

Day 1/30.

 

Day 12/30

 

Day 2/30

 

Day 9 / 30

 

31st day no pmo...5/30

 

Day 17/30

 

Thank God today I am sober 49 days from pmo
And I spent in this group 14 days
And I am very happy today I got my first business deal.
Thank NoFap

 

Starting again. 0/30