hello to all friends. thanks GOD uptill now i am clean 120 days from P & M. i am very scared now because m mind is plying games with me to watch p*** and do M********* but in real i dont want to do temptation are very high. even i make love with my wife today 2 times in a day. still i am not satisfied i was very busy from last 1 week and ignoring to coming here. i was taking guaranteed. thats y i have very strong urges. please god help me. even last night i made full scheme to do and start watch you tube and browse those videos thanx to god i stooped soon. i was thinking to press panic button. thanx for listening
i press panic buton ut it not work it lead me to various other web site where i l dont know where i go?
Thank you for your answer brother. I'll give it a one more try and of I relapse again, I'll try some easier. The problem is, I have lot of things to study. More I have to study, I study less. Actually I'm kind of getting blocked... Today I was studying, had some urges, but with "5 seconds fight" I managed to survive them.
time seems to pass so fast since my 30d challenge finished. it's already 10d! wow. last night I got a lot of porn thing in my dreams. it may be an indication that I'm stressed and don't know what to do. I need to catch up with my job and do more.
Looks like you are relying on WILL POWER a little too much. Understand that willpower is finite. In your weakest moments, i.e, when you are stressed or extremely tired, you can't rely on it. You can try scheduling your study time, don't sit for long hours at a stretch at one place, meditate in the morning or evening time. There are videos on youtube on how to get quality sleep. This will drastically reduce your stress levels. Since, in your case this seems to be the strongest trigger, find ways to reduce your stress levels. Like, don't consume coffee in the evening. Better yet, if you can, substitute it with green tea. Great way to reduce overall stress and fatigue in my opinion. Also there a couple of Yogic exercises that i do to keep fatigue in check. Let me know if you want to try out this method. Apart from that, keep grinding bro! But also remember the purpose of your struggle!
Day 16/30: Grateful for The Internet – for connecting you and others despite the physical space between you. And despite having all other negative things around it.
