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Discussion in 'Events & Challenges' started by 2525, Oct 2, 2017.
Day 0, start today
Starting again after losing myself for a while. Life can be better. 0/30
I am now thinking of this journey in vertical not horizontal terms. It is more motivating for me to think of a 90 day hike up a mountain rather than not fapping for 90 days on a horizontal timeline. The challenge every day is to keep climbing upwards above the clouds to where the air is fresher.
I "touched" the half!
Relapse... fuck. Felt so bad yesterday and this morning after my relapse. You know the feeling. Only had a little more than a week left.
Oh well, no reason to stop: 0/30
1 more day brother!
Dear all, dear Freeman82, first of all, thank you for your support.
Well, I'd say that I learned much more in my previous relapses during previous months, especially talking about the triggers, but one thing that I finally learn/experienced this time are those "Ups and Downs" that in my case came, I'd say, after one month. I wouldn't call it "Ups and Downs" but, a "new kind of triggers". So guys, BE CAREFUL and keep in mind that triggers are changing after you manage to accomplish certain number of days (30 in my case). So, since I wasn't used to those "new triggers", I failed, because these are not like those that we all more less know. Who knows, maybe they won't not change in your or someone else's case.
Now, What Helped me suddenly to arrive to 40 days, although I wasn't able to accomplish 3 days?
I hope not to disturb anyone with this part, but I'm just talking about my experience and what helped me. I believe in God and many times in my life I prayed to Him for a help, but 40 days ago I felt really bad and down, I felt like a real big SLAVE of this addiction. I was so desperate. Then I started praying, but this time it was totally different! I ensure you that I did simple, short prayer with my own words, asking God this time really, desperately and deeply from my heart for a help! HELP! I believe that He heard my prayer and everything started to change. only first few days it was a bit difficult, but soon I've become very good in "5 seconds fight" (know what is it?).
I don't give up... Starting allover again, this time more encouraged and with more faith.
Wish you all good luck and lots of strength!
Thank you for your attention and support. God Bless you all!
Thank you for you support brother. Well, 39.5, 40, or 90 days... I'd say doesn't matter that much. The only thing that matters is definitely to streak enough days to heal from this addiction and come back to previous normal life. Btw, when I arrived at 14 days like you now, I felt already very strong and that feeling lasted until more-less my 35th day. However, all that time, I was very careful.
Good luck. Keep fighting for the Liberty!
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@Strongman7 this is a VERY helpful post.
Thanks for pointing out that the triggers change. I will be mindful of that when the time comes.
I also agree that getting help from God is a powerful way of combatting this addiction. I am trying to approach my addiction to PMO like any addict who does 12 step programme. Steps 2 and 3 are realizing that I am powerless over this addiction and I need to rely on my higher power - God.
Good. I think 2️ months ago I met here one man, that thanks also to 12 step programme is not addict anymore. So continue going this way and never give up.
>10 and 2 weekends closer to the 50% mile stone