Day 10/30. A very tough one today. A lot of my underlying problems came to the forefront. I struggle a lot with criticism from others and a lack of confidence in myself. Anytime this happens (for example playing sports and making mistakes) i run to porn. I at least didn't run to porn as it would only make me feel even worse than i feel right now. Im sick of being a push over in life. A person people look at with a sense of sympathy or a sense of pity. Almost like a lost dog who needs help. I know the process will be rough but i jus have to go through the pain of it all.
2/30 I will never watch porn or any other sexually exiting materials in these days. And also I will completely stop day dreaming about sex which have became a habit of mine. I have stop these two completely because these two wont let my brain reboot properly.
Day 30 is done. That last week was hard! I am so proud of myself, and I never thought I could do it, and I can! Thank you for all of your struggles! Let's keep doing this.
Day 7: Kind of a roller coaster day. I had a positive feel, when I started the day. But, the hell broke loose towards mid-day. It was not because of the urge to watch P, it was because that I lacked interest in anything around me. Prepared an excellent plan for the day, but through mid day it fell apart. I just spent three hours without doing anything useful (without even conscious of my surrounding). Frustrated about myself. The sky got clear in the evening. I felt better after 5 PM. Spoke to few of my friends, written an article for my blog and felt so positive. Things I did today: * Meditation * Kept reminding that the mood swing is common and will be alright once I am out of this addiction * Made a deliberate attempt to look into positives of everything * Read few success stories of rebooters (Motivated)
