Hi guys i am day 30 today.after a period of 3 months i have come to this strek.my previous best was 54 days in may 2015.i am thankful to NoFap community for this.otherwise i could mot last this long.this 30 days have been very difficult for me.i was on the verge of relapse many times.but i did not relapse though i watched porn here and there.withdrawal symptoms were very tough.somehow i managed to overcome them.some days were good while others were very tempting.i was starting to see the benefits but as i stumbled on porn during the last few days i was back to my previous self.though i did not masturbate but i was edging continuously and this made me feel like loser again. I advice everyone not to edging.edging is very bad.it is exciting to the brain.that is why once we edge we want to do that again.on 27 i edged and then continued for the next 4 days.this made me realise how powerful this addiction can be.as maria robinson said in one of articles it is like playing with fire.i promise not to edge again.but time and again my mind goes to there.one thing leads to other and eventually i fall back on porn. Now i have uderstood why i have not been able to do NoFap.it is because i was still viewing porn and its substitutes during my streaks.i have to completely eliminate porn so that i can be free.during my porn viewing i realise that while watching porn we lost our reason and logic and want to just gratify our urge.during that moment we are not in control of ourselves and that is why we relapse.therefore it is necessary to completely avoid porn.we see a woman being fucked and we feel like fucking her but in actually she is being kissed,her body is being kissed and fucked by another man and not by us. But our stupid brain thinks that we are fucking her.but she is being fucked hard by another man.he is the alpha and we are the beta.we are the loser and we will not get to touch her in real life and infact we are making our life worse.we are doing self rape by watching porn because its negative effects can be devastating. Also i want to say that fapping causes many deficiency in us in terms of knowledge ,personality,confidence etc.my confidence has been shatered due to excess fapping.because it brings guilt and shame and i am not able to make eye contact with anyone.